My T told me today...quoting her..."You are one of the loneliest women I know." I really didn't know how to react to that. I just sat that in an awkward anxiety state looking around and found only the word "really" to mutter out of my mouth because I had no idea to take that. I'm sitting here now though crying my eyes out over it. I was ready to cry like this during session after she said that, but held it back....I wish I hadn't because it's more lonely/comfortable crying at 2 am by myself versus in session.

Also my T told me today that she dreamed about me. She dreamed that I had went out and bought more weight scales and that I had brought them all to her and that she had like 5 more weight scales of mine stacked up in her cabinet...where she already has my one and only weight scale that I brought in and she took from me. I made a pledge with her about three weeks ago, when I brought in my weight scale that she asked me to bring in, that I would leave my weight scale there and not weigh myself unless at her office or go out and buy another or even get on a weight scale at another person's house. Before she told me this dream she asked how much I weighed or if I had gotten another weight scale/been on one...and I told her that I didn't know how much I weighed right now because I haven't been on a scale since three weeks when I made the pledge/promise with you not to. I wasn't in anyway offended..but more amused at her dream and that she even dreamed about me at all..but also a little hurt at the fact that she basically thought that I didn't take the pledge/promise I made with her seriously.

[anilam]

My T told me stg similar. That I go to therapy because I don't have s.o. in RL to talk to- I'm not alone but really lonely.

[IndieVisible]

honestly, I'd get a new therapist.

[A Red Panda]

The dream that she shared with you? Honestly, it probably was just the fact that she worries for you and hopes that you will continue to do well - it's just playing on her fears. I have had some pretty horrific dreams about my students - it's always based around my own fears and never has anything to do with what I actually think about them. Once I dreamed that I was trying to adopt one of my students! She has a pretty rough family life... and I was obviously thinking about her and worried for her, so dreamed that something absolutely horrible had happened and that she needed to go into care.

Maybe after a few days of processing things, you'll be able to look at the comment in a slightly new way? Maybe? (My own T just pointed out how afraid I actually am of my family... it's true, but it was a new perspective as I never think of it in those terms. So I was a bit shocked by it, but I've been processing it and ultimately I think having that out in the open will help with things. I hope!)