[Phoobear]

Why is it that i struggle to fully open in a session? Why cant i talk face to face about everything. And then i regret it because i know i need the help. I would rather write it but cant read it back then. I hate being confronted about my pain. That makes me more alone than ever before

[pbutton]

Have you ever fully opened up before? Maybe it is a skill that you're working on building. That's the case for me right now. I am apparently a very slow learner.

[Phoobear]

Yes the very first session

I write the things I can't say and when I can't read them I just hand it over. My doctor and therapist reads my letters. It's a way of communicating too. For me writing feels safer.

[tinyrabbit]

Because it hurts.

[Phoobear]

If only therapy could gave been done online. How do you learn that skill ?feel so so alone.

[doyoutrustme]

You learn it slowly, over time, with patience.

[Hope-Full]

Write, write, write! I've even texted with T IN session before, because I couldn't bring myself to speak! It was easier to text it even though T was sitting right across from me.

I've often journaled and then brought that in with me to give T to read. A lot easier when we started, but still something I do three years in.

[Rzay4]

It took me a year till I fully opened up to my first T, give yourself time.

[Phoobear]

I have been going to him for an year and a half. And do not feel if any progress have been made. Why do we have to suffer like this?

[tinyrabbit]

Maybe you need to revise your idea of what progress looks like?

I hear you, though. It frustrates me utterly that I can't just GO IN AND TALK damn it.

[Phoobear]

Progress: not going back every time too the same old. Like my mind is my one enemy was it starts then its like a snowball.