COME GET YOUR KiICKS ON COUCH 66!

Granite...

will you be able to skype him soon?

no I don't have his address or a phone number. I did talk to him on fb .I made him send me a pic so I knew he was ok I hate what whoever did this to him.so so much. I know it shouldn't be a big deal but he is my son and right now he is all that matters to me .

no Skype right now it is 5am or so there

whatever the world so sucks and so do most people in it .time to take a bunch of meds to calm me own with a bunch of vodka and sleep eventually. I hate this world I am so so angry

(((Granite))) I hope your son is OK. Tokyo of all places.

Rough week. I had a nasty stomach bug that forced me off my juice diet. All I could eat were peanut butter and crackers and coke. Finally recovered and found my car was dying and needed major repairs. Went car shopping Friday afternoon and God how I hate that. Looking forward to a short week next week.

right after he spent three months saving there asses after the tsunami . people suck . thanks for your words

((Granite))

Hi Ready, Hankster, CE, Trdl, and any hidden folks. I hope everyone is doing well. I'm off to the grill. We had a front move in and the temp is way down. Not unpleasant. Does anybody have big plans for Turkey day(of those who celebrate)? We are going to my sister-in-laws. We will eat, shoot an air rifle at targets on a pumpkin and blow up assorted veggies with firecrackers. And then there is a corn-hole tournament. It is not too bad.

I want to sent an e-mail to my T .I know I shouldn't and it will only destroy what relationship I have with her but who gives a crap life isn't going to change people are horrible I am horrible so who gives a F U C K anyway. let her hate me .what does it matter .

Maybe you need somebody who can be more available anyway. Maybe you can see somebody twice a week for the same money. She isnt the only cold fish in the sea. I think it's good you want to reach out and email regardless.

Eta: ike, im afraid to ask what a corn hole tourney is! Glad you're feeling better.

granite... Can you call her? Even if you know she isnt going to answer and it will go to voice mail.... Can you call her and tell her how bad you are hurting and how afraid you were for your son...and ask her to call you back,..even if it will not be till tomorrow....

I don't really want to talk to her I want to tell her she is F U C K I N G wrong people are no good .I want to tell her she lies and this world does suck . I want to tell her she is a fraud. I just want to tell her she is all these things and more

Then this might fall under stopdog's rule of no vodka contact...

Granite... Wiki is a person in this world... Is she bad? MAST is a person in another part of the world...is she bad? NOT everybody in this world is bad.... But i wont deny there are SOME bad people in the world...but dont hate all of us just because of a few bad ones....

Its really hard to realize just how little control we have in this world... I get that....

Turkey day events... We go to my MIL's house.. 7 adults, 4 kids (2 5 year olds, and 2 almost 4 year olds).. they kids run crazy.. BILs watch football.. SIL & BIL nag each other all night, I am stuck disciplining my kids while my nephews run wild without any consequences.. I will beg my MIL NOT to make chicken nuggets and French fries for the kids, b/c they need to learn to eat what is served to them. But- the food will be good.

sounds miserable why go

((Granite))

You're upset and angry (naturally) and you want to lash out (naturally).

And maybe it's better to lash out at T than at H, for instance. Ts must be used to getting hate mail, and I don't suppose it will do any permanent harm.

But I think you will feel awful afterwards.

The food is good, Granite.. and I love my MIL.. Oh and my kids have fun as well. I also grew up away from extended family, so holidays were lonely.. I want my kids to experience holidays with their Grandparents, aunts and uncles, and cousins!

My D thinks we show favoritism to our exchange student. Maybe so, she is half a world away from home.

I am making inroads into getting the house cleaned. This weekend I cleaned up the area around my tv chair. Not completely, but boy I never thought it would ever get as clean as it is. Isnt that funny how that works? I also sorted some laundry and found my black winter sweater. I have two the same, so it would be nice if I could find the other one too, but hey.

I have been doing the same thing today.. I conquered the mountain of clean clothes on the loveseat in my bedroom, finally put them away. Feels good to have that all done!

Sounds like progress, Hankster.

Hi all. Just a bit grumpy as everyone is now on high alert as my meds have changed. My T has insisted (well, strongly suggested) I restart my mood charts and I'm subject to intensive questioning by GP and T. I fail to see what the fuss is.

Anyway Happy Thanksgiving to all who celebrate. Hugs to those who need them. I'm a bit erratic these days.

Sounds like we all had the cleaning bug today. S gets home on Tuesday and his girlfriend's parents agreed she could stay with us this week and weekend (as long as we swear to supervise closely). I started by just wanting to tidy up a bit, but turned totally OCD. I am proud to say that I think Wikid would eat stuff cooked on my stove now. LOL. I washed walls, I washed cupboards and scrubbed the dishwasher inside and out, even. I cleaned out our china cabinet, which was just JAMMED with miscellaneous papers and junk.

In the last two months, I have donated six large trash bags of clothing and just 'stuff' and we have gotten rid of at least three bags of papers and stuff that was useless. H had mentioned in MC that the clutter was really bugging him. The way he discussed it as if it were only my fault irritated and embarrassed me, but because one of the issues the MC thinks is huge for us is that H doesn't feel comfortable telling me about things that bug him, I tried not to bust on him too much for it. Instead, I suggested he take care of stuff in the den, since that is mostly his stuff. He started to complain it wasn't and I got out two rubbermaid bins. Told him to put my stuff in one bin and D's stuff in the other. If they got full while he was working, I would put those things away. In the meantime, I would go work on something else. We had to have the discussion that cleaning the den DID NOT MEAN putting stuff in bins the kitchen or bedroom the way he has done in the past. However, he did make dramatic progress on the den while I was cleaning up the rest of the house. Also, he had proof positive that it was mostly his stuff because my bin never got over 1/2 full until he filled up with random baskets that he didn't know what to do with, and D's bin was about 3/4 full. [And the den was PACKED with stuff.] So he has visual proof that blaming me and D was just ridiculous.

So anyway, I pointed out to him tonight that he had talked about the clutter and we had addressed without me getting really reactive with him. I tried to say that he COULD talk to me about things that bother him without the overreaction he keeps telling the MC he is afraid of. He laughed at me and said, 'yeah right. Whatever.' I started to cry because I have been working my A S S off around the house lately and he told me to 'just settle down.' Then when I got angrier, he told me I should 'just relax.' I told him to **** himself and left the room and he called out to me, "I love you!" WHAT. THE. ****.