[growlithing]

I just woke up from a horrible nightmare/flashback/sleep paralysis thing. I'm not really sure what it was because it didn't really fit into any of those categories.

Basically, I dreamt that I was in this room and there was this light coming from the doorway. The room looked vaguely like my room in my parents' house (which is unfortunately where I right now) and I know earlier in the night, my dad turned on the lights outside of my room and I got terrified. But in the dream, there was this creepy voice over saying " you can't escape from the light. You can't escape from the truth. You can't escape from him. He's coming and you can't move to run away. He's gonna hurt you and rape you and you can't even yell out". I opened my mouth to speak and the voice was right. I couldn't move. I could hear his footsteps. I started fighting so hard to get myself to scream out and finally I did and I woke up... yelling my T's name. I was screaming "*t's name* HELP ME."

I'm writing this because I'm still pretty shaken and I'm wondering if anyone else has woken up from a nightmare, crying for their T or if I'm just crazy. Should I tell her about this or is it creepy?

[Swan61]

Sounds like you are missing your T and simply looking for the nurturance that you might get from being in need of him/her.

[Swan61]

Yes, tell her....we all have needs to be comforted from time to time and it sounds like you trust your therapist to be there for you.

[Raging Quiet]

I would share your dream with her. It sounds very frightening; I hope you are feeling better x

[A Red Panda]

Nightmares really suck. The only time I've ever woken up and made any noise though was waking up in the middle of going "ouch!" when I smacked my face against the wall. I tend to wake up in a frozen state and then start to cry.

It would be totally fine to tell your T about your nightmare.

[Syra]

It sounds like you were very very frightened, and you called the name of the person you wanted to protect you. The only, or one of a very few people who know about this fear. That's what it sounded like to me. Was it like that?

[Bill3]

I'm so sorry that you were so terrified. Yes, do tell T. Do you keep track of your dreams?

[tealBumblebee]

I think you should definitely tell her. I hope you start to feel comforted soon!

[growlithing]

Originally Posted by Syra

It sounds like you were very very frightened, and you called the name of the person you wanted to protect you. The only, or one of a very few people who know about this fear. That's what it sounded like to me. Was it like that?

She's one of the very few people who know this fear, but she is also "mom" in my head. By crying out for her, I was crying for my "mother".

Originally Posted by Bill3

I'm so sorry that you were so terrified. Yes, do tell T. Do you keep track of your dreams?

Some, not al of them. Not all of them stand out

[Daeva]

Yes, I would say tell her, it can only help, I'm sure she'll comfort and reassure you

[growlithing]

Originally Posted by Daeva

Yes, I would say tell her, it can only help, I'm sure she'll comfort and reassure you

Yeah I'll tell her.

We're supposed to talk on the phone today. She kinda sucks with time and just told me to call her at work anytime between 9 and 5. I know that groups end at 3. So I emailed her this morning suggesting that I call at 3. No response. And the thing is that I need her to respond because I'm going to drive a an empty parking lot to talk to her in my car because I do not want to talk to her in my house.

She hasn't responded to a few of my emails. I'm worried she's angry at me. Or injured. But I know both of those worries are kinda silly. She's just busy and bad at responding via email. She likes to talk rather than type. She probably saw my email, thought "okay 3 works" but forgot to respond with "3 works" or I emailed her at 9:16, she starts leading groups at 9:15 and she will email back at noon for her lunch break.