[Hoppery]

S. is my social worker.. he hasn't been supporting me for very long but he won't be supporting me for much longer once I get a support worker and everything is okay with them. This is a letter to A. voicing my concerns. I need feedback. Does it make me sound like someone who is throwing their toys out of the pram? Or is it sounding like how I am feeling.. Which is fed up of feeling abandoned.

I've recently found out that S. is only short term. Once I have a support worker, he is going to make sure the person is okay then he and H. are going to walk away, turn their backs on me because that's their job to do that. So I want to ask you, is that your job too? To provide short term support and care, then say, "Hey your fixed even though you feel like your dying inside" then turn your back on me too? If it is, then I want to keep you at arms length because it hurts too much to connect with people then have them deciding that I need them no more when they don't even know the half of it. This is why I have major issues with trust and abandonment for. Because people keep abandoning me, even if it is their job to do so. My disabilities are not short term. They are for life. I'm always going to have problems in one area or another. I'm always going to need someone who isn't family to talk too. I'm always going to need some kind of support and care. I don't want to be left alone again. To try to survive in a world that clearly, doesn't accept me for who I am. I'm tired of people walking out, turning their backs on me. All that proves to me is that, yeah.. I am right in not trusting people. Because i'm the one who will be hurt when they turn their backs on me even if I need them, not them. So please A., tell me if your here for short term or long term. I can't keep picking myself up because everyone who is supporting me is short term. I need
someone who is here for me, long term if I need them. I know you can't support me forever because in the long distance future, everyone retires from their jobs one day. But I need to know will you be here for me, long term. Otherwise if your not, is there any point in me trusting you and connecting with you.

[anilam]

I think it's an honest letter- it surely takes guts to be that open/vulnerable.
I do hope A. is there to stay

[AllyIsHopeful]

I agree with anilam. The letter is very honest and straightforward about your fears and concerns. It's also good to ask those questions in the beginning rather than finding out later.

[HazelGirl]

This is a great letter. Very honest and a great question to ask. ((hugs)) Hope it goes well.

[Lauliza]

Your letter is perfect and articulates your feelings very well. I think A will appreciate you sharing this with him and asking such an honest question. ((hugs))