[sweepy62]

It was so unusual it was not dissociation , because I was taking but I remember answering questions like on automatic I will explain:

I started feeling heavy because we were talking about triggers, I remember concentrating on a spot on The bottom of the base of her lamp base , then my eyes got heavy.

I remember I felt very very relaxed, her voice was a little far away but I remember answering all her questions , but in a slow voice. I remember her writing all my answers down.

I eventually snapped out of it. What in the heck was that.

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[HazelGirl]

I would guess just another type of dissociation. If it's similar to what happens to me, it's just my way of dissociating away from my emotions enough to be able to talk about what I am trying to talk about.

Yes, but I don't think it is hypnotic. I read somewhere that it was one part of the brain shutting down the other - a stress response. It is like that for me too - everything slows down.

[sweepy62]

Wow it's so weird so involuntary that never happen to me before. It's funny she didn't mention anything , I think she did ask me if I was visualizing something from my past but I just felt extremely relaxed kinda paralyzed but able to answer questions

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[looking4polaris]

Yes, but I tend not to be aware of it until T says things are feeling different for him. I get a little "sleepy." Towards the opposite of when my brain gets too full and fast to engage properly. A different set of triggers for me.

[Auntie2014]

I have had sessions where I feel like I "disconnect" from my current feelings and do not connect to past feelings. To me it is kind of like searching for feelings while being aware of surroundings and actions. Often it is just a period of comparing a then and a now situation. My mind needs the time to do the evaluation before I can take actions. Once I was able to verbalize what was going on when i was in that state T was able to understand me better and work with me at my pace.

It took me awhile to be able to define that state v/s total shut down to T because they appear to be the same with my outside appearance.

[AllyIsHopeful]

Happened all the time when my depression was at its peak. I heard her but it felt like I was not there.

[granite1]

I kind of know what you are talking about. its kind of like being behind a big curtain

[sweepy62]

Originally Posted by granite1

I kind of know what you are talking about. its kind of like being behind a big curtain

yes, exactly, but what does that mean, was i in some state of something, she did not interupt me, she just kept asking me questions very slowly , questions and questions and as if like taking this opportunity of my relaxation, which otherwise i would not have answered.. she did not try to shake me out of this deep deep relaxation, i felt like i was in a guided imagery meditation state.

Catatonic states are kinda like that ...

I experienced it a lot more when severely depressed.

It may be less to do with dissociation, perhaps a kind of detachment?

But, yeah, the heaviness ... Ugh!

[sweepy62]

Originally Posted by Pfrog

Catatonic states are kinda like that ...

I experienced it a lot more when severely depressed.

It may be less to do with dissociation, perhaps a kind of detachment?

But, yeah, the heaviness ... Ugh!

its never happened before, i dont see t till next week, so i really want to know , if this was some kind of state, its really important to me, i cant seem to google this i dont even know how to word it, because you cant google something with alot of words lol, but do you agree it was some kind of state

[gayleggg]

Yes, I have dissociated during a couple of therapy sessions when we got to things I didn't want to face. But my therapist spotted and made me ground myself before she would continue. In other words, she wouldn't let me get a way with it. It was just like withdrawing from reality to a safe place inside.

Originally Posted by sweepy62

its never happened before, i dont see t till next week, so i really want to know , if this was some kind of state, its really important to me, i cant seem to google this i dont even know how to word it, because you cant google something with alot of words lol, but do you agree it was some kind of state

Yes, I do agree it was an altered state of consciousness, but as to what triggered it, I wouldn't know where to begin. I hope you'll talk with your therapist about in during your next meeting.

Mine would notice me going there and snap her fingers to reground me. I noticed it happened a lot when we were discussing some of the more severe abuses I'd endured while growing up and I'd just start fading out like that.

It is a form of dissociation and detachment but I don't remember what the exact name for it was even though catatonic had been mentioned a time or two.

I'd tell you not to be overly concerned about it, but that certainly wouldn't have done me any good back when I was going through it. I can tell you that it did happen less and less as I progressed through my healing and recovery process though and hope that gives you a little reassurance.

[sweepy62]

i dont think this was dissociation because , i have dissociated before, but was not aware of anything, and my old t would bring me back, this was different, it felt like when you are going through a guided imagery meditation or something. i was able to hear her but a bit far awayish, and slowish, I felt heavy and dazed and very very relaxed just staring at one thing. I knew i was answering every question but felt sort of like a robot, like hypnotized , or something. I would have normally not even have answered any of those questions, being that they would have been too much for a second session.

It felt surreal, like a total surrender, and with dissociation, i think you are not suppose to be able to talk or answer or be aware of anything. She did not take me out of this state, I do remember after the end of questioning, she asked me if I was picturing anything of the past and if I needed to be grounded wtf!!!!!!. she is a clinical psychologist, not that even comes into play.

i need to know what went on with me, I dont want to call her, i have tried googling with no success , i dont see her till next week. I want to know so it wont happen again.

[HazelGirl]

Originally Posted by sweepy62

i dont think this was dissociation because , i have dissociated before, but was not aware of anything, and my old t would bring me back, this was different, it felt like when you are going through a guided imagery meditation or something. i was able to hear her but a bit far awayish, and slowish, I felt heavy and dazed and very very relaxed just staring at one thing. I knew i was answering every question but felt sort of like a robot, like hypnotized , or something. I would have normally not even have answered any of those questions, being that they would have been too much for a second session.

It felt surreal, like a total surrender, and with dissociation, i think you are not suppose to be able to talk or answer or be aware of anything. She did not take me out of this state, I do remember after the end of questioning, she asked me if I was picturing anything of the past and if I needed to be grounded wtf!!!!!!. she is a clinical psychologist, not that even comes into play.

i need to know what went on with me, I dont want to call her, i have tried googling with no success , i dont see her till next week. I want to know so it wont happen again.

There are different types of dissociation. Some you can't talk and others, you just cut off certain things. I can almost always talk while dissociated.

[sweepy62]

Originally Posted by HazelGirl

There are different types of dissociation. Some you can't talk and others, you just cut off certain things. I can almost always talk while dissociated.

thanks for your reply, i didnt know that, i guess my next question would be, then why wouldnt she snap me out of it, would she just want to take advantage of it, but not in a bad way, of me being relaxed enough to answer these questions.

[HazelGirl]

Originally Posted by sweepy62

thanks for your reply, i didnt know that, i guess my next question would be, then why wouldnt she snap me out of it, would she just want to take advantage of it, but not in a bad way, of me being relaxed enough to answer these questions.

That depends. My T doesn't normally snap me out of it unless it's interfering with our work. She just asks questions occasionally to check on what I'm feeling and experiencing. She believes that these defenses are necessary and they will fall when I am ready to deal with what they block. So part of her response is related to that.

[sweepy62]

Originally Posted by HazelGirl

That depends. My T doesn't normally snap me out of it unless it's interfering with our work. She just asks questions occasionally to check on what I'm feeling and experiencing. She believes that these defenses are necessary and they will fall when I am ready to deal with what they block. So part of her response is related to that.

I guess that makes, sense, but knowing me, i take it further thinking theres a motive lol, i was thinking she used it to get answers out of me, because she knew otherwise, i would NOT have answered them. Regardless, I am going to ask because I need to know what state i was in, and why, so i wont be in it again.

[HazelGirl]

Originally Posted by sweepy62

I guess that makes, sense, but knowing me, i take it further thinking theres a motive lol, i was thinking she used it to get answers out of me, because she knew otherwise, i would NOT have answered them. Regardless, I am going to ask because I need to know what state i was in, and why, so i wont be in it again.

It is definitely worth it to bring it up. She may not have known exactly what you were experiencing and may have thought you were just trying to be more honest.

[sweepy62]

Originally Posted by HazelGirl

It is definitely worth it to bring it up. She may not have known exactly what you were experiencing and may have thought you were just trying to be more honest.

well lol I dont want her to think, this is going to be this easy for her, she already scared me by saying that our goal is for me to verbalized the words which im scared to say which are the words related to csa omg!!!!! and talk about csa stuff, not scratch the surface or skirt around the issue or just say the event and move on, thats what i did with my old t omg!!!! she says i havent processed csa yet, meanwhile i thought i did lol

[HazelGirl]

Originally Posted by sweepy62

well lol I dont want her to think, this is going to be this easy for her, she already scared me by saying that our goal is for me to verbalized the words which im scared to say which are the words related to csa omg!!!!! and talk about csa stuff, not scratch the surface or skirt around the issue or just say the event and move on, thats what i did with my old t omg!!!! she says i havent processed csa yet, meanwhile i thought i did lol

Just hang in there. Those goals sound impossible now, but you will be able to get there eventually.