[insane..ly smart]

if you read some of my other threads you will know that my former therapist (who i am madly in love with) left the organization i am attending. I have tried and tried and... tried some more to get her back and all my attempts have ended being futile.

i was going to tell her how I felt about her after months of mental preparation. i decided to write a four page letter telling her how i feel about her and why i feel this way.

THE DAY BEFORE I WAS GOING TO TELL HER, I GOT A CALL FROM HER SUPERVISOR SAYING THAT SHE IS "no longer with us"... i couldnt f ing believe it and i still cant. i am feeling very very depressed right now. i have been rejected by girls my whole life and i consider this as a rejection because she wont take me back as a client. fml

i have no questions or anything. i just wanted to vent i guess. to someone who hasnt experienced what i have, this is nothing more than a joke. i feel so alone right now

by the way, i did NOT expect her to feel the same way, or have a relationship with me or anything like that. i wanted her to know and i wanted her to help me with these intense feelings

[RTerroni]

I know it can be hard, when I recently broke off with my last Therapist I thought about going back to my old one (even if it meant paying out of pocket) but I later found out that she was no longer at the practice where I was seeing her.