So, I just got out of the hospital again and I was told that my old therapist died.

He wasn't a good therapist, in fact, I didn't like him, but he was nice. When I was in and out of the hospital, he often called my mom to check on me and see how I was doing.

I feel bad. I mean, I'm not surprised that he passed away, he was old and sickly. I feel really bad still. I didn't like him at all because he always compared me to his worse-off clients and he never seemed to understand what I was trying to tell him. At one point, he even brushed me off completely and told me that I didn't need help because everything with me was normal...

I feel torn. I feel that I should be sad because he was a nice guy and he was supportive of me when I was really sick, but then at the same time, I don't feel sad because he was such a terrible therapist..

Sometimes it is enough to do what you've already done--acknowledge the part he played in your life (objectively) and his passing--and leave it at that.

[Leah123]

Sorry to hear it. I hope you'll just accept your mixed feelings, no need to judge them. It makes perfect sense to me that you would miss certain things and not others, no one is perfect and yet he was clearly important in your life. I wonder if it would help you to write him a goodbye letter, but anyhow, glad you posted.

[HazelGirl]

I think it's okay to feel both at once.

[RTerroni]

Sorry to hear about that, I know it can be hard

Even if you weren't crazy about a certain person it can be hard when they dad, that was the case with many of my Grandparents (as well as a few of my Aunts) I wasn't really on good terms with them but it was still very hard when they died.