[deejade]

i still don't know what's wrong with me. anxiety and depression is way too broad.
i've been to two different counselors in my life and one other mental health doctor that had me take a long test (but apparently nothing is wrong with me, it was stupid).
when i read how many people "have" anxiety/depression and it makes me so mad....i have known SO many people in my life (more than average i'm sure) and nobody ever has once seemed even a little similar to the severity of this ***** i deal with....
i feel like my emotions are literally going to kill me one day. i feel physical pain from them. my soul ACHES. my mind NEVER stops racing... i hurt. i hurt so much.
i have no idea how to find a therapist that will work hard to find out whats wrong with me and help me. the other ones were zero help... it was awful...
please help me. guide me. anything. i'm desperate.
i'm 20 and trying to get through college but am considering giving up on life every single day...

[Leah123]

I am sorry to hear you are suffering so. "Emotions are going to kill me" makes me think that DBT would be a useful therapy for you to try with an experienced therapist. DBT is therapy focused on emotional regulation, to keep us from doing harmful things (to ourselves or others) because of how strong our emotions are. DBT helps us transition from being overwhelmed by emotion to being informed by emotion, managing our emotions, and taking good enough care of ourselves with many tools so that we can enjoy our lives better!

Here's a link about the basics: DBTCS - What is DBT?

[HazelGirl]

Have you ever gone to more than one or two appointments? Therapy takes time to begin to work. It's not an overnight fix.

[healingme4me]

What type of test, was it? For some reason, i believe, physical pain is a question on the psyche eval..

I could be wrong, that, for me, was several years ago.

Even racing thoughts, would be on it. Can your primary dr., refer you to a pdoc?

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deejade, like others have stated above, it usually takes more than a few sessions to connect with a counselor. I'm not saying that the person you talked to was the one for you, but I am saying that it usually takes me more than four or five times to really get a handle on someone . .. to trust, even a little, to let them know what is going on with me.

I GET IT that no one really understands how hard and unbearable your anxiety and depression is. You're probably right, no one truly understands or gets how bad things are for you. BUT if you're not able to talk about and describe how bad things are for you to someone, then no one will ever be able to GET IT! Don't give up. Find another counselor. Go to another doctor! Don't give up. Sometimes it takes three, four or five (or more) visits to counselors, social workers, psychologist, psychiatrists, to find the RIGHT PERSON FOR YOU to work with! If the one you have seen doesn't seem to relate, find someone else. Keep trying until the person sitting across from you is relatable, genuine, kind, compassionate, empathetic and KNOWLEDGEABLE! The right therapist is out there, it is just the matter of you sticking with it and finding that person.

[elliemay]

Okay, it's hard to summarize a condition online, but it sounds as though you are experienced an agitated depression - or a mixed state in bipolar talk.

I've gone through those phases and they are insanely uncomfortable, exhausting, stressful, depressing. It's just awful.

Sometimes it's about getting to the root of the problem and sometimes it's about symptom control and fast.

Can you go to a psychiatrist or your general practioner? Even a GP should be able to alleviate some of what you are feeling (and rather quickly) while you wait to get into a psychiatrist.

Yes, I'm talking about meds here. I'm just not convinced that we can talk our way out of a racing, depressed mind. Until it's calmed, however that calmness happens, it's hard to let anything in.

I wish you luck and some peace.

[Bipolarchic14]

If you do have something more severe, it may take years to diagnose. I had symptoms in early college of bipolar disorder and was in therapy then. I was not officially diagnosed until my late twenties.

[deejade]

my therapists i had seen for about a year or more each.
my GP is always really booked, my next appointment is in a week.
i'm on antidepressants and antianxiety meds but they hardly do anything except calm me down for a few hours or make me not kill myself.
how can i even find someone to help me ? :/