[glitterrosez89]

Sometimes going to a therapist makes me feel like an attention-seeker or narcissistic who is so selfish that I need to pay someone to listen to me talk about myself while ignoring their own needs for an hour.

I know this is a faulty way of thinking and that I am paying for a service. I just can't ignore the fact that there are two humans in the room, yet it's all about one while the other practically pretends to not even be a human with their own feelings, problems, and needs.

I am probably not even making sense lol.

[ThisWayOut]

I have thought that on occasion. Still do sometimes, but then I remind myself it's their job, one I am paying them to do. Also, I don't do it in the rest of my life, so it kinda balances out.

[glitterrosez89]

I think it's because I struggle with feelings of worthlessness to society. I feel like all I do is consume the services of others without providing any services of my own.

[sailorboy]

All the friggen time actually.

[kororain]

Sometimes. But it's just my struggle for worthiness talking.

I've asked T about 5 million times to verify I'm not a narcissist. She claims I am not.

[Notoriousglo]

Originally Posted by glitterrosez89

Sometimes going to a therapist makes me feel like an attention-seeker or narcissistic who is so selfish that I need to pay someone to listen to me talk about myself while ignoring their own needs for an hour.

I know this is a faulty way of thinking and that I am paying for a service. I just can't ignore the fact that there are two humans in the room, yet it's all about one while the other practically pretends to not even be a human with their own feelings, problems, and needs.

I am probably not even making sense lol.

You are not worthless. You are doing what it takes to get better. Pursuing help deserves a pat on the back. Trust me when I say therapists are well compensated.