[geez]

Is so difficult waiting till my next appointment. It will have been a month between appointments. It has stirred a lot in me. Not so much from a missing her perspective but a feeling of abandonment. Feeling anxious.

It's 3am and I just took a Trazadone. Hope I fall asleep soon. Is easier to be asleep than awake with these feelings.

[sweepy62]

I feel the same way, I dont miss her, I usually see her weekly, but due to a therapist leaving, all the therapists got a heavy caseload and my schedule got messed up, and I get to see her every 2 weeks or 3 weeks and she called out sick, and I see her next wednesday, making it a month. This will eventually get fixed, but its so difficult, as you say, I feel a sense of abandonment. I feel a sense of loss connection, a loss of trust, kinda angry, I dont know , my feelings have changed, so I understand how you feel.

[iheartjacques]

That is hard. Like the summer break. I do other things to try and distract myself from thinking too much.

[Aloneandafraid]

Yep, its hard. I don't want to go back after our 8 week break. I am currently feeling a loss of connection, I feel isolated, angry and as if it doesn't matter to her what I do so I might as well not return. My feelings have changed over the 8 week break from desperately longing for a connection (so I emailed) but the response was short and brusque so my neediness has turned to anger and resentment for needing her - does this make sense?!

[geez]

I totally understand! I too have anger and resentment for needing my T!!!!!! I've been pushing her via email telling her exactly how I feel (almost everything). I hate my T. On the upside she is still being reassuring that she isn't leaving me. In return however she has challenged me back and I have lots of homework. Lots of reflecting on what I didn't get but wanted as a child and how that plays out in getting what I need today.

Originally Posted by Aloneandafraid

Yep, its hard. I don't want to go back after our 8 week break. I am currently feeling a loss of connection, I feel isolated, angry and as if it doesn't matter to her what I do so I might as well not return. My feelings have changed over the 8 week break from desperately longing for a connection (so I emailed) but the response was short and brusque so my neediness has turned to anger and resentment for needing her - does this make sense?!