Y'know I think I have finally truly made up my mind that I am not going to quit on myself in this therapy adventure. I've tried in the past and t has always talked me out of it and she's always been right. I think I've finally grown enough to realize I better knock it off this trying to quit cuz one of these times she's not going to stop me and I know in my heart of hearts that I'm not done yet. I was ready to quit again just a few days ago - but - Spirit knocked me upside the head and instead I told t I want to take a break. And she agreed with that assessment actually, that she can see where I am right now in this whole process of individuation, she said a lot of people quit at this point, and that taking a break here is not a bad thing. Well that was just the right thing for her to say because I don't want to be "a lot of people". I want to be ME. So I am not going to quit. I am taking a break, to kind of psychologically regroup, before we dive back in for the next phase of this process. I give myself about a month before I'll want to start again. I dunno maybe I'll surprise myself and take a longer break. Yesterday's session was so perfect that right now, I can't see waiting longer but I will likely feel differently the farther away from yesterday we get. Honestly at times it is the intensity of the t relationship that I need a break from and this might be one of those times. I dunno. But, I am taking a break from therapy (again). And I feel very good about that! Just felt like sharing.
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