[Soccer mom]

I think I've come to realize that my feelings between sessions are stronger when I am insecure with my T. If we have a session where I'm questioning whether she cares, then I'm more emotional until the next session.
The session where she all but said it's ok to feel close to her made me feel the most content until the next one.
Anyone else feel this way?

[guilloche]

Hmmm.... that's an interesting observation... I'm not sure yet if it holds up for me (I'm not really strongly enough connected to T yet... it still feels like he's "new" and I'm not sure about him!)

It kind of makes sense though. If the connection is insecure... you may feel more alone with the feelings, less likely you have someone else to help "contain" them or understand them or deal with them. And, they may feel bigger and more overwhelming because of that? Maybe?

[sailorboy]

Not really. I can have a great session and then I like to remember it throughout the week and look forward to the next one or I can have a bad session and spend the week redoing it in my imagination. Either way I'm thinking of the relationship.

[kororain]

I'm not really that attached to my T... so no. I mean I like her alright. She's a nice lady. She let me hold this purple sparkle wand thing and I liked that. But that's about as close as I've come to having feelings for her. I wanted to hold the wand again. That's it. That stupid wand is maybe the only time she's ever really connected with me. Everything else, we were sort of talking around each other.

[shabur]

It may be worth exploring with your T. It sounds like you are unsure about your relationship.

[Chartres]

Yes, I have noticed something like this. Now that I am feeling more securely attached to T, I don't obsess about him as much between sessions. I still think about him a lot and rehash the last session in my head, but I don't have the same neediness to connect with him between sessions that I used to have. But it is a process. When I feel less secure about his care for me and less able for me to open to him, I feel that old grasping feeling come back and I start to doubt our relationship and simultaneously want to cling onto him and pull away.

Originally Posted by Soccer mom

I think I've come to realize that my feelings between sessions are stronger when I am insecure with my T. If we have a session where I'm questioning whether she cares, then I'm more emotional until the next session.
The session where she all but said it's ok to feel close to her made me feel the most content until the next one.
Anyone else feel this way?

Yes, I wrote about it here:

http://forums.psychcentral.com/psych...sometimes.html

The responses on that thread were extremely helpful. Maybe some of the responses would be helpful for you too.

[growlycat]

The more secure I feel the more I accomplish between sessions. Last week was amazing and I have found that I kicked butt this weekend in terms of getting things done.

Yes, if I feel uneasy or questioning whether T cares then I have a harder time between sessions.

[ScarletPimpernel]

I go back and forth between feeling secure and insecure with my T. It stems from my fear of rejection amd abandonment. But the intensity of my emotions btwn sessions doesn't necessarily hinder on how the previous session went.

Sometimes, I can have a great session. And then when I get home I replay it in my head and pick out one topic, one sentence, or one word and get it all twisted up. Sometimes, I can have the most difficult session: crying, vulnerable, doubts, fears, anger, shutting down. And I wind up going home feeling accepted, loved, relief, and calm.