[Soccer mom]

I remember someone posting about wanting to cry in their session and how to prepare themselves to open up.
I have been in a horrible place the last two days and have a session tonight. As the session gets closer, my emotions are going further away - I guess my great way of suppressing.
Any ideas to make them rise back up? I told her I want to experience my emotions IN session with her instead of the next day alone. I was crying this morning and now I'm ok. UGH!

[ruiner]

I understand the frustration. Something I've tried to do is listen to some sad/ambient music to try to bring out some deeply hidden emotions/feelings before sessions. Honestly, I don't know if it works all that well. The track record isn't great, but I continue trying hoping to break though some day.

[ScarletPimpernel]

I wish I had some advice. I don't struggle with suppressing my emotions.

I know it's stupid, but the only thing that comes to mind is to bring an onion and maybe those tears will help you feel more comfortable with emotional tears?...like I said...stupid

Every other idea of mine is worse than the onion idea...

Maybe try to coach your H to bring up/explain some things?

[JustShakey]

I think the more you try to prepare the worse you make it.
I know what you mean though. It is so frustrating. I remember one session with previous T right after my son had minor surgery (a fairly common thing for him). I asked my H not to talk to me in the car on the way home because I was trying to hold onto the emotions. I managed to bring a little bit of it into session with me, but it had mostly slipped away.
I think the only thing you can do about it is try to talk about how you keep losing how you feel and how frustrated it makes you. It'll take a while. I'm still mostly, well, not numb, but not particularly feeling-y in session either after 18 months.

I have the same issue as you. I have found that having some silence with my T when I have emotion but it is blocked seems to sort of help, it makes my emotion more present in the room, and I feel a bit held, even though there are no tears. My T has sometimes been able to sense when I need this. (This may be one of the few positive things I have said about her as I am usually wittering on about how I want to stop seeing her, I'm very changeable and don't want to stop today).

[Petra5ed]

Originally Posted by Soccer mom

I remember someone posting about wanting to cry in their session and how to prepare themselves to open up.
I have been in a horrible place the last two days and have a session tonight. As the session gets closer, my emotions are going further away - I guess my great way of suppressing.
Any ideas to make them rise back up? I told her I want to experience my emotions IN session with her instead of the next day alone. I was crying this morning and now I'm ok. UGH!

If you're religious try praying. I'm not even religious, and that worked for me... Also meditating quietly before, listening to chanting/meditation music, a quiet walk outside alone, basically anything to help you destress and anything but disassociating (I.e. No tv, no Facebook, no phone games just before the session). That's my two cents of what works for me!

[Soccer mom]

I cried in her waiting room and then the tears stopped right before my session. And, there were tender moments where I think she thought I would cry and I didn't. I even thought "come on tears". Maybe one day...

Shame! It is a mystery why tears don't come.