[Arha]

My T has been trying to get me to express more of some emotions, such as anger, during therapy. I have been struggling with even picturing this.
I have been trying to ask questions of my T, but finding it very difficult, as discussed in other threads on here.
So today, I not only brought up the one time I remember being angry with my T, I also managed to discuss it with him during the session instead of just clamming up.
It was interesting. (and here is the potential trigger, sorry)
It was in our very first session, when he found out that not only was I thinking through methods of suicide, I also had access to a potential means for suicide.
He asked me to remove the access.
I was offended and resentful and told him so, as I would not suicide by that means, and also felt that I had a right to it, for various reasons.
Today we discussed why I felt like this then, and why he did it, and how he saw things. Interestingly, he felt then that my anger was a good sign, among other things.

[ThingWithFeathers]

Congratulations on taking a big step. It sounds like it went well and was handled skillfully.