[Soccer mom]

I told my T. today I feel trapped. I have feelings towards her that I haven't told her about. Well, in general I have but VERY general. They bother me the most. She knows I want to talk about them but I stop every time. She hasn't asked why I'm scared but that's where I feel trapped. I shouldn't feel embarrassed because they are not wanted but they are towards her which is weird to me.

I'm scared if I tell her that she'll treat me differently, judge, feel awkward, etc. So, I thought about asking her how to overcome the fear of talking to her next session. But, then she'll ask "what are you afraid of". If I tell her the above, she'll figure it out or think the worse.

So, I can't even "kind of" tell her. It's all or nothing and I can't convince myself to do it.
I'm not sure you guys can tell me anything to make me feel better with a general post like this. Just had to get it out....

[ThisWayOut]

Can you see how she takes the conversation around being afraid of her, then go from there if you feel ok brining the rest up?
(hugs) I don't think T would judge you, though I don't know her... she sounds reasonably level and able to handle things.

[ScarletPimpernel]

I don't think this is going to go away until you tell her... You're kinda torturing yourself over this.

You can do it by writing it. Write it on paper and give it to her. Email it. Text it. The last two aren't the best ways, but at least it's out there.

Another way you can do it is bring it up as someone else's. Say you read about it on the forums. Maybe say you can kinda relate. Or you can say that you have these feelings towards someone other than your T.