[lostwonder]

I'm going to complain for a moment. I need to get it out figure y'all can totally ignore it. I hope y'all are ok with it being here because I totally almost sent this to T instead. I miss my husband, and want him home with me. I'm sick and overwhelmed with my daughter that seems to of not picked up my pleage and just wants me to play with her. I had to call into work sick today for the first time because I really couldn't be there. I'm tired, but can't breath without coughing. I can't go get anything for my cough because the kid is asleep and I don't have the strength to wake her up, get her dressed, and fight her through a store. I have asked for help, but no one is available. This has been a hard few days, and I'm over it. My house is a mess and I can't do anything about it. My child has eaten more cereal, simple salads, and delivery then I care to admit. I have my first exams next week, and I went to class so sick I'm not even sure what we already covered. Now I feel silly. My house is warm and safe. I have the ability to feed my child something. My husband is gone because he is working, a blessing in itself right now. I have time to figure out stuff for the exams. I won't be sick forever, heck the fever I've had for two days broke overnight and hasn't come back. I think even if I wasn't sick I would still miss my husband. Especially this trip. He is working 12p-12a and has no cell phone service were he is working or in his hotel room. I know the kid misses him, and from the sporadic texts he can get out and receive he misses us also. Just a hard trip, a hard few days, and a hard night. Thanks for listening.

[ScarletPimpernel]

I know you gave us permission to ignore it, but I wanted to respond

It sounds like you are really overwhelmed right now and are needing support. Being sick is not fun, but having to be a single mom while your husband is away is also a lot of work. I see you trying to focus on the positives. I have to say that I respect how strong you are being during this difficult time.

People are listening and here

My husband used to travel quite a bit when my kids were young too. Those days were hard at times. Moms are amazing. I'm sorry no one has helped. People don't always get it - especially if they don't know what it is like to be a single mom for a while. Another thought I had reading your post was - your child eats salad, I wish my kids would.

[lostwonder]

Thanks, y'all are so sweet.

[tealBumblebee]

I just wanted to say, because of the last part of your text, don't invalidate what you are feeling. It's okay not to be okay. I'm sorry that things are so rough for you (because they do honestly sound rough) and hope they get better soon.

[lostwonder]

Thank you. I don't belive that I am compleatly invalidating myself though. Just finding things to be grateful and hopeful for in order to counter the negative self-pity I am feeling, and prevent a spiral that could leave me trying to dig my way out of for months.