[clairelisbeth]

I have an amazing pdoc and we have a great relationship. I've been working with her for several years and she understands me very implicitly. She is kind and wise, and makes me long for the type of mother-figure that I never had.

She has helped me enormously. I love talking to her-there never feels like there is enough time (she does more than just med management). She's gotten me through some really excruciating times in my life.

I (and this feels embarrassing to admit) fantasize about being her daughter, what it would be like to have a mother like her.

I'm an adult. I feel totally silly. I both want and don't want to feel like this. Does that make any sense? Can anyone else relate?

[Ellahmae]

Yes! Completely. I don't want to feel this way I know it's not logical nor is it possible or in anyway realistic but I can't help it. It's how I feel and one day I'll be brave enough to talk about it with T. meh

[clairelisbeth]

Originally Posted by Ellahmae

Yes! Completely. I don't want to feel this way I know it's not logical nor is it possible or in anyway realistic but I can't help it. It's how I feel and one day I'll be brave enough to talk about it with T. meh

Yes, hopefully I'll be brave enough to talk about it with her more than I have one day. We have sort of talked about how I put her in the role of "good parent" in my head, but I haven't actually gone into depth. She probably already knows that this goes deeper….shes pretty sharp.

[musinglizzy]

I hear ya sista!

*hugs* ♥♥♥

[Ellahmae]

Mine is sharp also, so I imagine she has an idea. So sharp she scares me half the time haha. Sometimes I find myself thinking that she doesn't have any daughters and we'd be great together... and then I stop thinking because well, I don't want to and them I'm just left with the feelings/emotions... I haven't even talked about it in that much depth, yet. I'm partly hoping it will pass soon and then I can bring it up like, "T, wanna hear something funny...?" One can hope, right?

[musinglizzy]

I haven't exactly said anything to my T, but I have told her I love her.... and I have also talked to her about how I feel about her daughter being brought into my therapy session. She has a teenage daughter, and in one way or another, she's always brought up. Jealousy? Probably. I'm sure she can read between the lines and understand why I don't want to hear about her precious daughter. At one recent session she had her daughter WITH her! She sat outside the door, in the waiting room, during my session. I about jumped out of my skin with anxiety during the entire session (which was cut short because she had to leave to take her daughter somewhere else)