[ScarletPimpernel]

I met with the county Pdoc for the first today. She was actually extremely nice. But going over my list of symptoms, she said I have two additional diagnoses to the ones I already have. So I have major depression, anxiety disorder, BPD, agoraphobia and now PTSD and social anxiety. She only added PTSD to the offical list because she said I have too many diagnoses as it is. I know it's just a label for my symptoms, but right now it makes me feel even more messed up.

And I HATED the nurse. Why do so many people assume that people who are overweight are idiots when it comes to diet and exercise? And the nurse gave me bad advice anyways. She told me I needed to count calories. ALL my doctors have told me not to count calories. I'm supposed to count carbs and exercise 30mins 5x a week. It was none of her business anyways.

DBT still sucks. They taught us wise mind, rational mind, and emotional mind. They said wise mind was simply emotional mind and rational mind combined. Wrong! According to the workbook, wise mind is emotional mind and rational mind combined PLUS intuition. It's the small quiet voice in your mind that guides you and directs you. It's the answer that you know is right deep inside yourself. They never said that...

I miss my Pdoc so much. And I'm still struggling with the push/pull with my T. The rest is just little stressors, but it's adding up.

Btw, my fiance went to his first therapy appt and he liked the T! Yay!!!

[SnakeCharmer]

Scarlet, I'm extremely proud of you for doing this -- the whole thing is a major accomplishment for someone with agoraphobia and past unpleasant experiences at the county. Well done.

Even if this DBT class is not up to snuff, the fact that you're going is a major achievement and that's a Big Deal. You're smart enough to study the workbooks and begin to understand and use the concepts on your own. But it takes actually getting out there and doing the things we dread if we want to confront our phobias and start getting beyond them. Can't do that staying within our comfort zones.

None of this is anything you wanted to do. It's all part of reaching your larger goal. Give yourself a pat on the back and never mind the nurse or the extra labels. You did it! You faced it! Good work!

[Raging Quiet]

You are so brave