[BlessedRhiannon]

First - I KNOW the best solution is to talk to T about this, and I will do so on Monday when I have an appointment with her. I just kind of wanted to order my thoughts a bit and get some feedback on this from others.

I'm not sure when it really started, but it's been happening for at least the last month. I feel like T and I are having issues communicating. I feel like we're just a half step out of sync all the time. This is very strange for me because for the last 5+ years, T and I have always communicated very well. It feels like for at least the last month, we've just been having misunderstanding after misunderstanding. It's not been anything big, yet, but it's been happening often enough that I'm noticing and it's frustrating.

For me, big changes within the last month or two have been medication changes and shifting from depression to a hypomanic state. I'm not sure if my T has had things going on in her life which might also be impacting our relationship and communication.

Could my starting Depakote really have impacted our communication in such a way? Could it just be something going on with T, that I'll need to let her know is impacting me? If you've had a great relationship with T, which suddenly seemed to shift slightly, how did you address it, and what worked to solve it?

[LonesomeTonight]

Have you noticed changes in how you relate to other people in your life as well? If so, then could be the meds and/or hypomanic state. And I know you said you were going to do this, but I agree that talking to T about it is the best way to handle it. Have some examples ready, too. I imagine if you've had a good relationship for that long, this is probably just a little blip and will pass.

I think the being out of step will become part of the work.
It's unconscious at the moment, but more will be revealed

time heals all wounds.

well, i mean that time will make it easier for you to communicate. this is just a bump in the road.

[Lauliza]

It's possible the medication changed affected your communication style and your T is having trouble adapting to it. Going from depression to a hypomanic state is pretty dramatic. Like you said the only real solution is to talk about it. She may have some real insight and you can work from there.

[BlessedRhiannon]

Thanks all. I do think medication is playing a part. I also think there is something going on with t that is bleeding over in to our sessions. I plan to bring it up with her tomorrow.

[BlessedRhiannon]

So, I just thought I'd update, in case anyone was curious.

I sent T an email late last night, hoping she'd have a chance to read it before my session today. She didn't have a chance, but read it while I was there. She agreed that we seem to be having some trouble communicating lately, but was unsure of the cause. She does not think it's entirely due to things going on with me. She acknowledged that she was a bit sensitive on Friday and that caused a bit of a misunderstanding. She asked me what I'd noticed about her specifically that made me think we were having trouble communicating. I was having a hard time pinning that down...it's more just a feeling that specific instances. I promised to let T know if anything comes to me or if I see it happening again. She's agreed to think about it as well and see if she can think of anything.

T thanked me for bringing it up and remarked about how impressed she was with me. Of course, that made me want to crawl in a hole! I hate when people compliment me. She said that not many people are able to bring up things like this and address them. I just kinda brushed it off and changed the subject. I really, really hate those kinds of compliments.

Anyway, just in typing this out, I think I've figured out one thing that happened in session today that might be causing some of our mis-communication, so I'm going to go write it in my journal.