[Restin]

I've been in therapy 3 yrs. for Schizoid and Disorganized Attachment Disorder. I've worked hard and come a long way, mostly through a negative Transference, suspicions, fear of betrayal, etc. This month I was able to let go of all that and decide T won't hurt me... a big step and a place I've never been.
But now I'm beginning to feel dead inside, like there's nothing left if there's nothing to fight about. I feel sad and like crying all the time. I still feel attached in some way, but now I feel so lost and nothing. I don't know what to talk about in the session anymore if I don't have some mean riddle or something sarcastic to say. Does anyone know if this is just a stage? Or is this the end?

It's still part of the transference

[angelicgoldfish05]

Nature abhors a vaccuum and life ebbs and flows. There will be new things ahead, but also more of the same I imagine. Yes, I believe boredom is a phase (stage). And this too shall pass! Good luck!
And in addition, good for you for getting to a place where you trust your t won't hurt you. That is great! Good work!

Perhaps the transference was a distraction from you. Time to really look at what you need for yourself now maybe rather than focusing outward at someone else? Just a thought.

[Leah123]

Originally Posted by Restin

I've been in therapy 3 yrs. for Schizoid and Disorganized Attachment Disorder. I've worked hard and come a long way, mostly through a negative Transference, suspicions, fear of betrayal, etc. This month I was able to let go of all that and decide T won't hurt me... a big step and a place I've never been.
But now I'm beginning to feel dead inside, like there's nothing left if there's nothing to fight about. I feel sad and like crying all the time. I still feel attached in some way, but now I feel so lost and nothing. I don't know what to talk about in the session anymore if I don't have some mean riddle or something sarcastic to say. Does anyone know if this is just a stage? Or is this the end?

Only a stage, the emptiness and sadness are signs of receptivity to positive experiences, I think something wonderful will grow out of this if you persevere. You're just beginning to build a new, stronger identity.

[ruh roh]

Originally Posted by Restin

I feel sad and like crying all the time. I still feel attached in some way, but now I feel so lost and nothing. I don't know what to talk about in the session anymore if I don't have some mean riddle or something sarcastic to say.

That sounds like a lot of great material for therapy right there.

[AllHeart]

Originally Posted by Restin

I've been in therapy 3 yrs. for Schizoid and Disorganized Attachment Disorder. I've worked hard and come a long way, mostly through a negative Transference, suspicions, fear of betrayal, etc. This month I was able to let go of all that and decide T won't hurt me... a big step and a place I've never been.
But now I'm beginning to feel dead inside, like there's nothing left if there's nothing to fight about. I feel sad and like crying all the time. I still feel attached in some way, but now I feel so lost and nothing. I don't know what to talk about in the session anymore if I don't have some mean riddle or something sarcastic to say. Does anyone know if this is just a stage? Or is this the end?

I believe this is one of the many stages you will go through all part of the therapeutic process. It's such a long sometimes daunting process. But "they" say it's worthwhile. Hugs!

[Restin]

Wow...So many encouraging replies. I also hope I'm just in a stage. Maybe even the therapist would like it better if I'm not always expecting judgment for my inner child. At least the child part trusts enough to be present. We'll see what happens.