[MindfulMoment]

I have real problems when my T goes on holiday. T has been away for a few weeks now and I've pretty much spent every other day pining for T like a lost puppy.

I'm just curious, those of you without trauma, do you feel your Ts absence in this way? In essence what I'm asking is, what si it like to have a secure attachment to your T? How often do you think about them, when it comes to termination, how do you deal with it? I want to learn how to develop a secure attachment to my T.

[Petra5ed]

Yes, I have this problem as well and it is terribly embarrassing. Even a small break would bother me really. Even the days between our regular weekly sessions. How well I handle it ultimately seems to rest on how I am doing at the moment. If I am spiraling into depression, I would feel even more needy and want to text him/ worry that he might be thinking of terminating me/ might not come back etc. I think part of it is this terrible abandonment anxiety I can get. But there are times too when he has been out for a week or so and I find other things to do, my mental health generally seems fairly good and for the most part I'm not worried or pining to see him again, I can realize he is where he is, hope he's having fun, and have no worries that he will come back at some point and we will resume therapy like before. This struggle to feel secure in relationships is the absolute worst part of trauma as a kid if you ask me.

[MindfulMoment]

Yeah I also get terrible abandonment anxiety It doesn't help that our sessions are coming to an end soon.