[Tongalee]

Ugh, I hate returning to therapy after a break. The anxiety I feel about how it will go is terrible. The worst part being I was supposed to check in with my therapist and decided not to. I think I thought that it would spare her the need of having to take the focus off her vacation and especially her children to return to our town and her work (mentally that is). Now I'm worried that she will be upset with me for failing to do something she and I had planned on and is frustrated because she spent more time contemplating why I hadn't checked in, or was worried I was ok. Does anyone have any experience with this?

[Sarah1985]

I've felt that way before and didn't contact my t when she was on vacation too. Came back and she didn't say anything. I think it's just something they say to help us feel at ease and make them gone easier. At least that is what it feels like for me and my t.

[AnxiousGirl]

Originally Posted by Tongalee

Ugh, I hate returning to therapy after a break. The anxiety I feel about how it will go is terrible. The worst part being I was supposed to check in with my therapist and decided not to. I think I thought that it would spare her the need of having to take the focus off her vacation and especially her children to return to our town and her work (mentally that is). Now I'm worried that she will be upset with me for failing to do something she and I had planned on and is frustrated because she spent more time contemplating why I hadn't checked in, or was worried I was ok. Does anyone have any experience with this?

I'm in the EXACT same situation right now. The last time I saw my T was early July and then she went on a vacation for 3 weeks then I had exams, so I just finished school a day ago. I have a session tomorrow and I'm DREADING it. I felt so free and calm without therapy and now it's back to the horrible feeling the night before and the insane amount of anxiety the day of. I hate it!

[Tongalee]

Yes!! Exactly! I know that I'm going back into hard conversations, flashbacks, triggering material that will all make life so difficult again, and I'm dreading it. I feel like a little kid counting down to the impending start of school. I'd love to see my therapist, I do miss her, but at the same time I just wish we could really about something else, be together for a different reason. I'm sure I didn't email because it's honestly been a bit of a relief to have a little distance and time for other things going on in my life.

[CantExplain]

So how did it turn out?

[nottrustin]

I struggle with this. On the one hand I feel bad about interrupting her vacation but then again she asks me to check in. The last time she went on vacation it was out of the country. She has a private practice and asked me to check in once a week (she was gone for almost 3). When she made the request during an appointment I said I was uncomfortable with it as it was her vacation and I really didn't want her working during that time. She told me that it was her vacation and she could decide whether she would work or not a little bit. She had a few clients in a difficult space and this was her way of feeling comfortable leaving them as she knows she doesn't have back up. She would check emails when she had a little down time so to please contact her. I contacted her the first week and said that while things weren't easy I was doing okay. I didnt contact her after that but told her when she came back that I was in an okay place and had things been different I would have contacted her....

[lozza89]

I have felt this way before also. It's weird though for me because on one hand I do not want to interrupt her holiday as she barely takes any breaks at all and is pretty much always contactable (even on weekends!) but then on the other hand I am desperate to be in contact whilst she is away because I just need to know she is still there and is coming back if that makes sense but I feel so bad and horrible her not having a proper break from work.. now though however when she goes away and is still in the country, she will check in with me every few days which makes me feel more at ease and better because I know that she is contacting me when she is free and able to as opposed to me contacting her and having to wait and pray that I am not getting on her nerves..

[Tongalee]

Originally Posted by CantExplain

So how did it turn out?

It was fine, we didn't end up talking about it at all. Though some other really scary stuff came up that I didn't even expect which made session two really hard to return to :/