[M3233]

So lately I've been wondering if I should go back to my ex T. Just recently I've been missing her. I was talking to current T about some of my obsessions relating to my Christian faith and it didn't go over well. Ex T was also very open about her Christian faith and would openly talk and help me through those kinda things. I wished I copied talk to her about it.
The reason I stopped doing therapy with ex T is because I didn't feel like it was working and she didn't really understand. I went to therapy when I was very young and my mother did most of the talking for me. I didn't really have pleasant memories of that and had lots of fear regarding trusting therapists. Ex T was the first T I saw after that. I trusted ex T more than I have ever trusted any other mental health professional and just really liked her overall. I'm so thankful that I saw her first. I don't know where I would have ended up if I had seen my Pdoc or current T before I saw her because I learned how to trust people and that it was ok. Current T is not someone I particularly like. I have not gone near subjects with her that I have with ex T and even pdoc. She may have helped me a bit though.
The more I think about it, the more I think that maybe with ex T I wasn't in a situation to really benefit from therapy. I didn't understand that therapists weren't some magic mind readers and that I actually had to say what was on my mind in order for them to help. In addition, I was only on half the medication dose I am on now. The meds definatley helped and I am wondering if I was just not in a place to be able to use therapy without them. Then again I don't want to be wrong and end up with the same problem.
Going to try to talk to pdoc about this next week, but has anyone ever been in a situation like this or have any advice? Thanks!

[stopdog]

There are some people on this board who successfully went back to see an ex therapist. If you think it would be useful, why not try it out?