[TerriLynn]

I drove home from last night's appointment going "dammit! dammit! dammit! You suck!" directed at my therapist. Not in an angry way, but in a he just might be right way.

We were talking about many things, it seemed pretty insignificant to me, but he brought up something he read last week that he thinks was really pertinent to me, Freud said " I cannot think of any need in childhood as strong as the need for a father’s protection". I thought, "ok, maybe, but then there is the need for the bond with mother" I think that is pretty significant, if not equal.

T then said that he thinks I have a bigger problem with my father and his lack of protection than I do with my step mother's abuse. I immediately disagreed with him. I know I have some small problems with that, and then the next sentence out of my mouth was that I should probably be angrier at him than I am. But then doesn't that just validate what he said! LOL!

We talked about my dad and our relationship, conversations, etc.

Then on the way home, all these little pops going off in my head...about all the times Dad didn't protect me, so I drove home thinking "Dammit! Dammit! Dammit! You suck!" At my T for being so insightful. But the Freud quote also lines up directly with the Hierarchy of Needs too, and that also clicked in my brain on the way home.

I still am not sure that he is right that my father issue is more important than the abuse part, but UH, he is damn close, which makes it even more possible that he is right.

[CANDC]

sounds like your T triggered the same response you had when your father triggered it. If that is the case, sounds like a bullseye by your T. Right on the mark. That was the same button your father pushed.

Looks like you made some profound insight today. One of those "aha" moments.