[Elkino]

I finally managed to tell T about how it's bothering me that she, once again, forgot to schedule my next session.
I couldn't do it in person, I got to meet her but was too scared for her reaction, but at least I sent a text message two days ago.

If there's one thing I've learned from being on psychcentral, it must be that I have to communicate. When I want things, when I wonder, when I worry, when things bother me,...
So thanks to all of you who gave me this kind of advice and helped me realize this.

And finally I've been able to. I'm still scared for what her reaction will be (actually it's a bit weird she didn't answer yet too), but at least I don't feel bad for having mentioned what's bothering me anymore. and that's quite a big progress.

Anyone else experiences a breakthrough like this? where you're finally not afraid anymore of bringing up things like this?
I'm hoping T won't feel too bad about how I expressed myself though. It wasn't supposed to hurt her in any way...

That's great that you felt able to express yourself, it sounds like a significant breakthrough for you!
I wouldn't worry about her not replying, she may just want to keep the discussion for the session rather than risk saying something via text which could be misconstrued.
A good T can take care of their own feelings, and I hope she is able to handle this non-defensively and hear your feelings. Remember, even if she doesn't respond as sensitively as she should, that's no reflection on you. You have done the right thing expressing your feelings about what is happening in the relationship. It's a cornerstone of good therapy.

[Elkino]

Thanks! I'm glad about it too.
I'll keep that in mind, while waiting for a reply and starting to freak out about how she'll react. But just like you say, it was only meant to express how I feel, not to say that she sucks at scheduling (although she ain't very good at it, I guess ). so let's hope she sees this the same way and doesn't feel hurt.

I definitely think this could be a start of a new kind of process where I risk to speak up, say what's bothering me and feel comfortable being that honest.

[PinkFlamingo99]

She hasn't answered in 2 days? That would drive me nuts. But congrats on standing up for your needs.

[Elkino]

Originally Posted by PinkFlamingo99

She hasn't answered in 2 days? That would drive me nuts. But congrats on standing up for your needs.

lol, thanks, now I'm going completely crazy.

[PinkFlamingo99]

Originally Posted by Elkino

lol, thanks, now I'm going completely crazy.

Sorry! She honestly just sounds a bit scatterbrained.

[Elkino]

Originally Posted by PinkFlamingo99

She hasn't answered in 2 days? That would drive me nuts. But congrats on standing up for your needs.

And she sent me a reply...

Originally Posted by Echos Myron

That's great that you felt able to express yourself, it sounds like a significant breakthrough for you!
I wouldn't worry about her not replying, she may just want to keep the discussion for the session rather than risk saying something via text which could be misconstrued.
A good T can take care of their own feelings, and I hope she is able to handle this non-defensively and hear your feelings. Remember, even if she doesn't respond as sensitively as she should, that's no reflection on you. You have done the right thing expressing your feelings about what is happening in the relationship. It's a cornerstone of good therapy.

Time to keep your advice in mind, Echos.

I knew because I didn't receive a confirmation text message, that my session hadn't been scheduled. Then found out someone else booked the session when calling the offic.
I then rescheduled my 'non-existing' session so this week. Luckily that one had been scheduled. Then I sent T a message to tell about how I felt.

The answer (email) said that either she forgot to put it there, which does happen more often, or she removed it again when I rescheduled (I am aware that she may truly think this is the case, but I do know that this is not the case).

I'm still glad I sent the message, although it didn't sound at all like an apology. And I know she would refuse to do that too, she doesn't let anyone destroy her mood by a stupid email like mine.
Then she ended the email by pointing at something way more important going on in my life right now and wishing me luck with that. Maybe it's just me, it sounded like 'better care about those things, that actually do matter, instead of sending this to me'.

Not sure whether I should react to this before I see her again or not...
Maybe tell that I know she did forget about my session, but what'd be the point, right?