[rainbow8]

I'm visiting my daughter who recently had a preemie baby. At first I emailed my T a lot, but I've been extremely busy so I haven't had a need to email her for a while. I will probably stay longer, though Mommy and baby are fine. There's a lot to do here, with all the kids-- like laundry!

So it will probably be 3 weeks I skip. That's never happened before. I was in the middle of important issues, but now they're on hold. Sometimes I think about T at night and the child part misses her. But I know I can't climb into her lap. That's just fantasy. Before I left, she suggested I don't email her my processing of the session. I sent her an angry email after that, including 4 letter words I rarely use. I said it was a mistake to suggest that when I'm going away!

She hasn't responded much to my emails. Just positive brief sentences. When she wrote "have fun", I got angry again and wrote her that being here is not fun!

I feel disconnected from my T because of her brief responses. I know she is trying to be less " in my life" and it's sort of working except when I feel sudden spurts of longing.

I'm not sure why I'm posting. Maybe just to stay connected to the forum.

[AncientMelody]

I'm so glad to hear your daughter and her baby are doing fine, and how kind for you to stay on so long to help support her! My mom was a big help when I came home with both of my kids as babies. I wish you the best in the remainder of your time there and your T longing/confusion etc.

[rainbow8]

Thanks for the hugs! Thanks, Ancient Melody. I'm glad I'm here where I belong, but I'm starting to miss my T. I'll probably email her today to tell her I won't be back home next Tuesday either. When I start writing to her, I never can stop. I always have that problem with writing, even here! I want to go on and on. There's so much inside of me I want to get out! Do others feel that way?

[Waterbear]

Like the flood gates are opening!!

[Coco3]

Yes, I find it very hard to write short emails to my T. And I get lost in time when I write in my diary. So much to tell...

[Petra5ed]

I feel like I'm in the same boat, therapist is separating from me, although he denied it. Sad. I try not to let myself go there too often. The child part of me is still very angry.