Hospital again

Jun 22, 2016 at 03:33 AM

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Originally Posted by passionfruit3

How long will you be there this time sounds like a better hospital a lot of hospitals out were I live are terrible but I understand your fear of them just remember to breath when you feel that anxiety coming over you and remember fear can only go up so far before it must come down.so just ride out your fear and it'll pass and good luck eden

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It is a better hospital but i could be there for a long time i am trying to stay calm i really am but it isnt working i want to scream everything hurts and i am scared i will freak out when i get there it. My mum said it could be as soon as 4 days from now i am really nervous.

bookgirl667 · Jun 22, 2016 at 03:36 AM

You will be fine...I've had three hospitalizations (of varying quality) - it sounds like your pdoc really looked to find a quality one. I can't thank the doctors and especially the nurses enough at the good hospital I went to, the one my mom (who was a nurse there on a different unit) made sure I got into. I felt safe there. They were very good about helping me with hopelessness, racing thoughts, suicidal thoughts, etc.

Even if for some reason you don't like it, you likely won't be there that long...they will try to stabilize you and keep you safe and then make plans for your aftercare once that's set up.

Jun 22, 2016 at 10:45 AM

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Originally Posted by bookgirl667

You will be fine...I've had three hospitalizations (of varying quality) - it sounds like your pdoc really looked to find a quality one. I can't thank the doctors and especially the nurses enough at the good hospital I went to, the one my mom (who was a nurse there on a different unit) made sure I got into. I felt safe there. They were very good about helping me with hopelessness, racing thoughts, suicidal thoughts, etc.

Even if for some reason you don't like it, you likely won't be there that long...they will try to stabilize you and keep you safe and then make plans for your aftercare once that's set up.

i could be there for a long time as they have therapy programs and this will be my 7th hospitalization my 3rd since april. i am so tired they said it could be as soon as 4 days from now i really dont know what to do i am so tired and so scared.

A18793715 · Jun 22, 2016 at 12:06 PM

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Originally Posted by eden1515

i could be there for a long time as they have therapy programs and this will be my 7th hospitalization my 3rd since april. i am so tired they said it could be as soon as 4 days from now i really dont know what to do i am so tired and so scared.

You can do this. Don't worry about the number of times. Just go and let them help you feel better. It'll be okay.

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Jun 22, 2016 at 01:55 PM

I am really scared now I don't know if going is the right thing to do or not. The demons are really mad and they really don't want me to go the demons and the others don't want me to go I really don't know what to do they are going to hurt me there i really don't know what to do I have screwed everything up again.

Angelique67 · Jun 22, 2016 at 02:10 PM

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Originally Posted by eden1515

I am really scared now I don't know if going is the right thing to do or not. The demons are really mad and they really don't want me to go the demons and the others don't want me to go I really don't know what to do they are going to hurt me there i really don't know what to do I have screwed everything up again.

The demons don't have your good health in mind. They simply don't care what happens to you. Demons get strength from your fear. And they are part of the devil, right? Satan is a massive liar. You ate being asked to not believe these demons. They are liars, and for whatever idea, they want to hurt you.

The hospital and doctors there want to make you well. It looks like that could be a long process. But you will feel so much better if you will cooperate with the hospital.

Angelique67 · Jun 22, 2016 at 02:11 PM

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Originally Posted by Angelique67

The demons don't have your good health in mind. They simply don't care what happens to you. Demons get strength from your fear. And they are part of the devil, right? Satan is a massive liar. You are being asked to not believe these demons. They are liars, and for whatever idea, they want to hurt you.

The hospital and doctors there want to make you well. It looks like that could be a long process. But you will feel so much better if you will cooperate with the hospital.

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passionfruit3 · Jun 22, 2016 at 03:36 PM

Can't you just not go and find a public hospital with better security or whatever You should have options maybe even a residential place would be better than a hospital. Were they drug you ask what are your other options

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Jun 22, 2016 at 07:21 PM

This is more like a residential place in a sense and not there are no other public hospitals this place is supposed to have therapy all day and all this other stuff I am just scared cause the demons are mad and these demons belong to God. Anyway I am just scared.

Angelique67 · Jun 22, 2016 at 07:44 PM

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Originally Posted by eden1515

This is more like a residential place in a sense and not there are no other public hospitals this place is supposed to have therapy all day and all this other stuff I am just scared cause the demons are mad and these demons belong to God. Anyway I am just scared.

If it's a residential hospital, it's likely the people there are nicer than in the psych ward, because there's less coming and going. It could be a lot better. I hope so, anyway.

I hope you will find out the truth behind the demons and entities in your head. If you truly are exhausted, and want to scream, I think you'll feel much better in the hospital. But you've got to give it a chance.

passionfruit3 · Jun 22, 2016 at 08:39 PM

It'll be okay Eden nothing last forever there have been people with your condition who have recovered you can to.its hard for you to imagine a world without the demons in your mind but there is one and you'll feel better for it just give it some time.and most important try to get better don't fight

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Jun 22, 2016 at 10:51 PM

i really dont know what to do i feel horrible i cant even explain it i feel like i am about to cry and i dont know how much longer i can hold off doing anything i am so tired i really just feel awful i cant i am scared. my mum wants to ask for them to wait another week before i go as it suits her better but i dont think i can wait that long and i feel like if i go for another week i will back out and not go at all. i dont know what to do everything is a mess.

atisketatasket · Jun 22, 2016 at 11:12 PM

Hold the line with your mother. Trust your sense of what is best for you in going into the hospital soonest.

Angelique67 · Jun 22, 2016 at 11:39 PM

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Originally Posted by eden1515

i really dont know what to do i feel horrible i cant even explain it i feel like i am about to cry and i dont know how much longer i can hold off doing anything i am so tired i really just feel awful i cant i am scared. my mum wants to ask for them to wait another week before i go as it suits her better but i dont think i can wait that long and i feel like if i go for another week i will back out and not go at all. i dont know what to do everything is a mess.

It sounds like you are beginning to understand that you need the help the hospital can provide. This makes my heart sing for you, because if you trust in something apart from all the fear that your demons hold over you, you can recover enough to be able to be part of the world, and to follow your happiness in life.

08:54 AM

i dont know what to think or who to trust right now i am scared and tired and i feel horrible today

i want to scream everything hurts so much i dont know how much longer i can hold on.

LonesomeTonight · 08:55 AM

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Originally Posted by eden1515

i dont know what to think or who to trust right now i am scared and tired and i feel horrible today

i want to scream everything hurts so much i dont know how much longer i can hold on.

Tell your mom you can't wait to go to the hospital. Tell her you really need help. If she still wants to wait another week, contact your psychologist and/or psychiatrist. Please try to hold on to at least get to the hospital to see what they can do to help...

Jun 23, 2016 at 08:29 AM

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Originally Posted by LonesomeTonight

Tell your mom you can't wait to go to the hospital. Tell her you really need help. If she still wants to wait another week, contact your psychologist and/or psychiatrist. Please try to hold on to at least get to the hospital to see what they can do to help...

it is not just her they need to reply we wiil find out tomorrow if it will be monday or the next monday but i dont think i can make it to the next monday. i am trying but i feel horrible. maybe i shouldnt go maybe i am just wasting everyones time i dont think anything will truly help it cant i screwed up this is all my fault. the demons are mad and that is my fault too. i keep screwing up maybe this is a mistake as well i dont know what to do anymore i cant think i just i am so tired i feel like i am about to cry everything hurts so so so much i cant explain it i dont know what to do.

Possible trigger:

i want to cut so badly but last time i lost so much blood i nearly fainted 3 times

i really dont feel in control anymore i dont know what to do.

atisketatasket · Jun 23, 2016 at 08:53 AM

Can you tell either the hospital or your psychologist that you can't wait till next Monday?

Jun 23, 2016 at 09:00 AM

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Originally Posted by atisketatasket

Can you tell either the hospital or your psychologist that you can't wait till next Monday?

i dont think the hospital works that way and idk i am supposed to have an appointment with my psychologist in a few days if i am not at the other hospital by then but idk i am so tired. i just want to cry.

here today · Jun 23, 2016 at 09:45 AM

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Originally Posted by LonesomeTonight

Tell your mom you can't wait to go to the hospital. Tell her you really need help. If she still wants to wait another week, contact your psychologist and/or psychiatrist. Please try to hold on to at least get to the hospital to see what they can do to help...

I agree with this. Can you call your psychologist and see if he can help? It sounds like your mum wants to help but doesn't fully understand the seriousness of the situation. It may need somebody like your psychologist to advocate on your behalf with the hospital. Just a thought.

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Anonymous37884 Guest Posts: n/a	Jun 22, 2016 at 01:55 PM #25 I am really scared now I don't know if going is the right thing to do or not. The demons are really mad and they really don't want me to go the demons and the others don't want me to go I really don't know what to do they are going to hurt me there i really don't know what to do I have screwed everything up again.
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passionfruit3 Grand Member Member Since Aug 2015 Location: California Posts: 897 9	Jun 22, 2016 at 03:36 PM #28 Can't you just not go and find a public hospital with better security or whatever You should have options maybe even a residential place would be better than a hospital. Were they drug you ask what are your other options Sent from my LGMS659 using Tapatalk
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Anonymous37884 Guest Posts: n/a	Jun 22, 2016 at 07:21 PM #29 This is more like a residential place in a sense and not there are no other public hospitals this place is supposed to have therapy all day and all this other stuff I am just scared cause the demons are mad and these demons belong to God. Anyway I am just scared.
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passionfruit3 Grand Member Member Since Aug 2015 Location: California Posts: 897 9	Jun 22, 2016 at 08:39 PM #31 It'll be okay Eden nothing last forever there have been people with your condition who have recovered you can to.its hard for you to imagine a world without the demons in your mind but there is one and you'll feel better for it just give it some time.and most important try to get better don't fight Sent from my LGMS659 using Tapatalk
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atisketatasket Child of a lesser god Member Since Jun 2015 Location: Tartarus Posts: 19,301 (SuperPoster!) 9 12.4k hugs given	Jun 22, 2016 at 11:12 PM #33 Hold the line with your mother. Trust your sense of what is best for you in going into the hospital soonest.
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Anonymous37884 Guest Posts: n/a	Jun 23, 2016 at 07:57 AM #35 i dont know what to think or who to trust right now i am scared and tired and i feel horrible today i want to scream everything hurts so much i dont know how much longer i can hold on. Last edited by sabby; Jun 26, 2016 at 08:54 AM.. Reason: Administrative edit to bring within posting guidelines
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atisketatasket Child of a lesser god Member Since Jun 2015 Location: Tartarus Posts: 19,301 (SuperPoster!) 9 12.4k hugs given	Jun 23, 2016 at 08:53 AM #38 Can you tell either the hospital or your psychologist that you can't wait till next Monday?
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