[Sarmas]

I'm unsure of how to address things. I've recently ended sessions with my T and my nutritionist. I am missing my T terrible but I came across a couple of things that made me think. I've been diagnosed with an eating disorder as well and I take supplements. It helps me cope I guess and I've been battling this issue left and right. Once I ended my sessions I kind of went backwards. I broke out in a rash and I've been nauseous. They put me on oral steroids for a few days and yesterday I went to my doctor. I told her the whole thing about going backwards and what I'm on now. She asked me a question which put things into perspective. She asked me how the medication that I was taking was going for me and I told her that I take it when I want to take it and how I want to take it. That's when I noticed that my issue is bigger than what I thought. There's more to that. Anyway that's when I decided that I needed to continue therapy. I convinced myself that my T doesn't like me and as I was searching for a T , I saw a seminar that she held earlier this year with one of her clients. She uses this one particular girl who is now in her twenties to speak about her eating disorder. I guess this person was her first big patient who she went above and beyond for and she still does. I know my thinking is skewed but the first thing I thought was that why doesn't she use other clients and she just devotes so much time to this one with others needing so much help. I don't know. I know it's not right and I'm totally wrong but that was my thought pattern. Then I said well it's time to move on being that I was just another number. I placed a call for Someone else and never got a call back. That was frustrating and disappointing as well. My doctor knows my T and I told her about what happened and she said that perhaps because I went back on my supplements that my T got frustrated and gave up on me. She said what else did I expect her to do. I said well I was hoping that as a T she would stick around for a few reasons. I knew her for four years and I felt like I was going to start to open up prior to all of the issues and I needed her the most during this time. I was hoping she would help me help myself. I know it unrealistic but at times I think that perhaps she will contact me or my nutritionist will touch base. I was thinking that maybe my dr would speak to her as a team. I guess not to all and then after my frustration with acquiring a new a T went foul. Also it doesn't seem right. I almost feel like I'm cheating on her. In my life I've had multiple coaches and trainers but only one T. Now my kids therapist changed days and times. That means that we will be there when my T is off. Now I know I won't see her as all. I know it's a difficult process but I guess this will help me detach faster.

[LonesomeTonight]

If you just recently called the possible new T, could be that he or she is on vacation, since this is a popular time of year for that. I'd try calling some more--and maybe that one will still get back to you. Psychology Today has a place on their site where you can look for T's near you and find out more about them.

Also, I'm confused about the supplements--why would your T be unhappy you were on them? Are they for appetite suppression, something like that? (only guessing that because you mentioned an eating disorder). Or something you're taking instead of medication?

[Sarmas]

Originally Posted by LonesomeTonight

If you just recently called the possible new T, could be that he or she is on vacation, since this is a popular time of year for that. I'd try calling some more--and maybe that one will still get back to you. Psychology Today has a place on their site where you can look for T's near you and find out more about them.

Also, I'm confused about the supplements--why would your T be unhappy you were on them? Are they for appetite suppression, something like that? (only guessing that because you mentioned an eating disorder). Or something you're taking instead of medication?

Yes it's for appetite suppression. She was against it. Ingot rid of them and I was making progress. I did tell her that with my stressors and all I was on them again. They also give me energy and so it's easier to get through the day. I just make excuses.

[Sarmas]

Originally Posted by LonesomeTonight

If you just recently called the possible new T, could be that he or she is on vacation, since this is a popular time of year for that. I'd try calling some more--and maybe that one will still get back to you. Psychology Today has a place on their site where you can look for T's near you and find out more about them.

Also, I'm confused about the supplements--why would your T be unhappy you were on them? Are they for appetite suppression, something like that? (only guessing that because you mentioned an eating disorder). Or something you're taking instead of medication?

Thanks!!! Yes that's where I looked. There aren't too many eating disorder therapists. I have other issues as well which do apply. This area is not the greatest for that. I find that it's the easiest through psychology today. Perhaps I should look more at a distance. I thought that perhaps that T was away. I sent her an email with a little info and then I thought that perhaps she rejected it. It could be that she's away. I'm not sure how much I want a new T. My T was not that affordable for me without insurance. I don't have the courage to ask for a sliding scale. I feel like it's offensive. I know it's not but it feels wrong. I think at this point that relationship is squashed on her part for sure.