[FairyLeaf]

Having almost 200 sessions and had gone for over three years, they want me to leave.

My counselor knows I am not ready but I am in a Government funded program in an agency. The wait is 2 years and lack of funding. Which, that isn't my fault but it seems like it is my fault.

I stopped talking about stuff, heavy things because it was too much, so talked about other things.

My counselor knows I am not ready and wants to spread the sessions out. However, I need to be let go.

My last appointment ended badly and I've never felt so abandoned before by being told that after January I need to take a break or come to sessions less. In other words, it means the wait list is so long that this is what I need to do. That the higher ups want me to not go anymore, that they are questioning why I am there, why I have so many appointments.

It isn't fair. I am not sure what to do anymore.

It feels like all my fault. I am being thrown out the door because no one gives a rats *** about me. My counselor has already bent rules for me.

I am lost. I don't know what to do. I've offered to pay for my sessions but there isn't any comments back.

After what happened and all the distressing emotions I've had to deal with, I am off put by the entire agency and now I am not sure about my counselor.

Ironic how all this unfolded after I sent an e-mail explaining about my youth counselors I've had then talking about feeling like I am going to be abandoned. Guess what is happening, guess what happened right after I expressed that? All of it, it feels I am not longer wanted there.

I am not sure. I am...

I've found a possible private therapist but I am not sure if I am able to pay hundreds of dollars a month to go, with the amount of stuff that is going on. I just don't know.

I feel so broken and lost.

[kecanoe]

I am sorry this is happening to you. It doesn't seem fair at all. Reading your post, it sounds like you haven't done anything to make them tell you have to quit. It sounds like people who don't know you are making a decision based on money. And it sounds like your counselor would also like for you to continue but can't figure out how to make that happen. I've been in therapy for way more than3 years and am still not ready to quit.
I just want to offer hugs if you want them.

[FairyLeaf]

That is basically how it feels. I sent an e-mail to my counselor telling him that he needs to keep me away from them and them to stay away from me, cause I feel I may or may not do something serious. I am so angry. I don't very often get angry, I'm not an angry or violent person but it feels I might be.

I am so devastated. My doctor wants me to see her a lot more since all of this is going on plus other things. She asked me if I owned firearms and I've never been asked that. I don't but it just makes me wonder if I said something to warrant to be asked.

He has ideas. I am not sure what they are and I already feel I have just leaped further away from him. That my trust was broken for some reason.

Been sitting here with panic attacks, sleeping like crap, hyperventilating, and just feeling lost. I also am too scared to cry because I just had eye surgery and my eye already hurts and I've been just closed up inside, silently, it's killing me inside.

My doctor says I am going through the stages of grief... I have no idea because if this is what "grief" feels like then I never grieved my grandmothers death 3 years ago then...

I want to do something to not be thrown out the door. It seems everyone else made the choice, never factored in what I want and how it would impact me.

[LucyG]

I'm sorry you're going through this.

I think a good part of the problem is that this is the beginnings of ObamaCare, and instead of more and better care, it's literally denying care to people. Years ago before it was passed I heard an interview about the provisions in the bill with a top neurosurgeon and he was talking about how people over 55 would given a white cane if they had cataracts, or a regular cane for knee problems instead of surgery. We're all going to have a terrible time getting health care in the future with the provisions of ObamaCare....

Pay the money to see a private therapist while you still can.

Originally Posted by LucyG

I'm sorry you're going through this.

I think a good part of the problem is that this is the beginnings of ObamaCare, and instead of more and better care, it's literally denying care to people. Years ago before it was passed I heard an interview about the provisions in the bill with a top neurosurgeon and he was talking about how people over 55 would given a white cane if they had cataracts, or a regular cane for knee problems instead of surgery. We're all going to have a terrible time getting health care in the future with the provisions of ObamaCare....

Pay the money to see a private therapist while you still can.

OP's location is Canada.

[FairyLeaf]

I am not in America so it doesn't apply to me. Health Care is free. Mental Health support is decreasing here. I'm not sure what to do anymore. I don't know how to express how this entire process that is happening to me either.

Originally Posted by LucyG

I'm sorry you're going through this.

I think a good part of the problem is that this is the beginnings of ObamaCare, and instead of more and better care, it's literally denying care to people. Years ago before it was passed I heard an interview about the provisions in the bill with a top neurosurgeon and he was talking about how people over 55 would given a white cane if they had cataracts, or a regular cane for knee problems instead of surgery. We're all going to have a terrible time getting health care in the future with the provisions of ObamaCare....

Pay the money to see a private therapist while you still can.