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At the end of my session today I asked T if I could see a picture of her boyfriend/partner. She asked why. I said because I've seen pictures of her ex-husband, her kids, her pets. She isn't private about herself though most of the photos were from Facebook that I found on my own. I told her because I like to know about her life. I'm not sure what else to say. I think it's the usual reasons people have about feeling close to their T but it's not reciprocal. I just want an image in my head of whom she's with now. I know it's her right to not tell or show me, and that makes me sad.
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I really get this urge to know and it hurts when we are faced with the reality that this relationship is one sided. Did she show you Rainbow? I don't see any harm in it, she must know that you like to know these things and have an insatiable curiosity about her.
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I'm sure you won't be surprised that I understand this, too. Having just found pics of my MC's wife and my T's H online...The wanting to connect and feel closer to them. The therapeutic relationship and boundaries can be hard...
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One of my ts ex wives ran for public office and sent a postcard with her face on it to all the voters. I told t to thank her for the portrait or stg stupid like that. He just played dumb - he's very good at that. TOO good!
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rainbow - I suspect your therapist is really asking you why this would be therapeutically useful. |
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Rainbow, I completely understand and feel the same way. Sometimes I want to know just because I want to know and I hate having to explain it. And in my case, it does me no good explaining it because she won't tell me anything anyway! I will be terminating with her at my next appointment as I've found a new T.
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[QUOTE=atisketatasket;5416840]I am now pretty sure your t is Bluebeard. rainbow - I suspect your therapist is really asking you why this would be therapeutically useful.[/Q Yeah. I don't know the answer to that. When I think of her now, I think about him too, but he doesn't have a face yet. I want him to. [QUOTE=SoConfused623;5416883]Rainbow, I completely understand and feel the same way. Sometimes I want to know just because I want to know and I hate having to explain it. And in my case, it does me no good explaining it because she won't tell me anything anyway! I will be terminating with her at my next appointment as I've found a new T.[/QUOTE I'm glad you have found a new T. Last edited by rainbow8; Dec 15, 2016 at 01:53 AM.. |
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I googled my T's wife (she's a T too) While there was no harm in it for me, it might be wise to be cautious if you think it might make you jealous. If it's going to be painful it might be important to protect yourself from that. Perhaps that's what your T is thinking. After all she has a duty to 'do no harm'.
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I think maybe perhaps it's just part and parcel of the therapy experience for me anyway, the constantly being confronted by my wish that I could be more to t than I am, y'know, my silly heart always wishing she and I could be friends, that kinda thing, that somehow it's necessary for me to learn to let our relationship be what it is... the unique "it feels personal but it's actually professional" ah - light bulb moment - another opportunity for me to practice the letting go of trying to control stuff and letting life flow.... thanks for sharing rainbow, you have sparked a good realization inside of me.
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I don't know why! It's probably better if I don't see it. I wish the idea hadn't popped into my head because now I feel rejected.
I'm just feeling sorry for myself. I want and don't want a man in my life again. Therapy isn't about my T and her partner. She's also not my friend. If I could accept that right now.......life is so hard. Is it like that for others? Last edited by rainbow8; Dec 15, 2016 at 11:23 AM.. |
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I understand you. I had the same feeling. I wanted to know more about my T's life. Then I googled her on facebook and found his boyfriend too. I wanted to see photos of him...His page was private, there were some past photos. There was a photo of him and her kissing (it's his profile pic so I could see it). It wasnt a good thing for me to see that...I wanted to know more about my T, wanted to see how her life was, but at the same time I felt jealous (when I saw the kissing photo for example). I don't know if I'm jealous of her boyfriend, or about her life in general that seems perfect, beautiful and stable from the photos.
But I don't think that seeing her boyfriend was helpful to me. Yes, now I know what he's like...but it gave nothing to me. I don't know his personality. I'm more obsessed now after seeing that photo, I still have the habit to check her and his facebook page...it's not helpful. __________________ At every moment of our lives, we all have one foot in a fairy tale and the other in the abyss.
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Interesting that you remarked that you wish she didn't have any boundaries. Everyone has boundaries! A T will have more than a friendship, or a partner-ship-it keeps both people in a more "healthy" space. I know you said you wouldn't stalk her (and I believe you), but remember that she has previous experience w you crossing the line sometimes into her personal boundaries. You said she showed you her pictures of her kids-but that was AFTER you saw their pictures on FB, right?
In an ideal world, I am guessing T would share everything about her life to you? How would that benefit you? Also-it is rare that any one person shares "everything" with just one person. I think it is healthy to share your needs around. I went (sort of still going) through a situation recently w a friend where I was needing too much from her-a HUGE fear of mine. She didn't exactly put it that way, but my insecurity was driving her away. What I am trying to say is that it's good for people to have boundaries, even though it does hurt. |
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I think maybe you sort of put yourself out there to be upset about these sort of things w T (not on purpose). If you know she doesn't answer (or doesn't like to answer) questions about her family, you know by asking that you probably won't feel satisfied. I can be way off base here, so please let me know if I am.
I agree that it sucks that you can't know everything your heart desires about your T, but maybe if you journaled about those curiosities, or maybe go to session with the question of why do I feel the need? And what can I do to lessen it? |
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What does that young part respond when you ask her why it 'isn't fair'?
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For me, knowing about my T, especially his vulnerability, is a therapeutic way to remind me "careful, even authorities are not perfect ! Authorities are actually human beings with their own imperfections. Being a leader is actually acknowledging imperfection as a form of normalcy".
I cannot stand a therapist, or an authority, which boundary is never ever self-disclosing. It means putting a mask of perfection. Therefore, the example is increasing my perfectionist tendencies, so wanting to be as perfect as therapist. The problem is that such standard is impossible to reach. The therapeutic setting is actually set-up for failure right off the bat because it means a power struggle, winning a contest at all cost. Therapy doesn't have to be a Pyrrhic victory !! In my case, I don't feel jealous about T's family. I don't feel rejected. And age difference is too great for T and I competing in the same ground : he is more a grandfather figure with wisdom. My T thought that it was a matter of "I'm not that old", I answered that actually, it's a very positive transference of wisdom's transmission rather than age. OTOH, I have my own path of happiness. It doesn't mean following "partner, house, children, dog, car". Mine is very different, and that's ok: "it's a variable of normalcy" to quote T. Had my T been a young T, the feeling of being in a contest for perfection would had been hitting too strongly for my own good. The contest would had been counter-therapeutic. The feeling of being in a contest for winning would had been too hard to overcome for both parties. __________________ - ADHD, ODD, SPD, dyscalculia, dyspraxia, dysgraphia, anxiety and Single Sided Deafness by perinatal brain injury - PTSD + intermittent phobias - Giftedness diagnosed at 13yo Tx : ritalin 10mg x4/die Effexor 37.5mg/die hydroxyzine 25mg, 1/2 PRN (very rarely) psychotherapy 1/week BAHA (Bone Anchorage Hearing Aid) since Feb 2004 |
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My T used me to get a hook-up for himself. It's disgraceful.
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