[AnxiousandAlive124]

So, yesterday in therapy we ended up talking about my past experience with transference (after I asked if she had heard of transference), during the last 5 minutes I happened to tell her I think I'm experiencing transference. She did ask what kind. I paused and eventually said romantic/erotic.



She didn't seem really uncomfortable hearing it and she even winked at me I think in a friendly way when we were sitting outside her doorstep. (Went out there for fresh air) Maybe things will be ok?

[LonesomeTonight]

Originally Posted by AnxiousandAlive124

So, yesterday in therapy we ended up talking about my past experience with transference (after I asked if she had heard of transference), during the last 5 minutes I happened to tell her I think I'm experiencing transference. She did ask what kind. I paused and eventually said romantic/erotic.



She didn't seem really uncomfortable hearing it and she even winked at me I think in a friendly way when we were sitting outside her doorstep. (Went out there for fresh air) Maybe things will be ok?

Wow, that's a great update! So far, sounds like she's being very accepting about it. You were very brave to tell her--and it was good to ease into it like that. How are you feeling now? And when is your next appointment?

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[AnxiousandAlive124]

Originally Posted by LonesomeTonight

Wow, that's a great update! So far, sounds like she's being very accepting about it. You were very brave to tell her--and it was good to ease into it like that. How are you feeling now? And when is your next appointment?

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I'm feeling...not 100% sure, it's weird when it just came out when I've been hiding it for almost 2 years. lol Uhm, it definitely feels good that it's out there now and not just in my head. Now, it can be "relived" and actually discussed. Plus there is some relief in letting it out. Right now I mostly am still in shock that I let on as much as I did.

My next appointment is a week away. Next friday...

[LonesomeTonight]

Originally Posted by AnxiousandAlive124

I'm feeling...not 100% sure, it's weird when it just came out when I've been hiding it for almost 2 years. lol Uhm, it definitely feels good that it's out there now and not just in my head. Now, it can be "relived" and actually discussed. Plus there is some relief in letting it out. Right now I mostly am still in shock that I let on as much as I did.

My next appointment is a week away. Next friday...

I felt about the same way when I told my marriage counselor. A combination of relief and "Oh, God, I can't believe I just did that!"

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[AnxiousandAlive124]

Originally Posted by LonesomeTonight

I felt about the same way when I told my marriage counselor. A combination of relief and "Oh, God, I can't believe I just did that!"

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Yeah...let's hope it stays positive though...have you ever talked about your fantasies or things you imagine doing with him?

[AnxiousandAlive124]

To him I mean

[LonesomeTonight]

Originally Posted by AnxiousandAlive124

Yeah...let's hope it stays positive though...have you ever talked about your fantasies or things you imagine doing with him?

Not really. I eventually realized it was mostly paternal for him. But before that, the closest I could get to sharing something with him was, in one of the two individual sessions we had, saying something like, "Sometimes, I just wish you could hold me. And other times, I wish you could do non-PG-rated things with me."

I told T a little more of my thoughts about MC, but never in any detail.

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