In the past. On Xmas morning. I'd be partly mourning the loss of T. I'd imagine her Xmas morning with her family and me being the last thing on her mind. If at all of course.
Infact, most of xmas day I'd have her in mind.

This Xmas it didn't happen like that. Infact I've never felt like I'm in the 'here and now' as I have this Xmas. I've found myself baking, enjoying my family, and really being here with all that I've done/doing.

I've felt really at home in myself, and at peace with things just as they are.
this is what I wanted from therapy, before I even knew what it was. To enjoy MY life.

[mazing]

That's fantastic to hear It's always great when we can recognise how far we have come!!

[precaryous]

I miss T. It helps she lets me email her in between sessions but not the same, is it?

During summer break, I imagined her with family and having a good time. I can picture her laughing and happy. Weird, but that makes me happy for her. I surprised myself how well I did.

When she returned from summer break she told me a couple of entertaining stories about her summer trip...I was right, she had a good time.

Trying to conjure up the same feelings for Xmas break.