[laxer12]

I'm having one of those weeks where I cannot stop thinking about my T and it's driving me crazy. I struggle with attachment and she knows that I feel attached to her and think about her more than I would like.

It doesn't help that work has been pretty slow this week so I just sit here and think about our upcoming session tomorrow. I'm tempted to reach out to her but I'm honestly doing okay so I don't feel like it would be appropriate. There are a couple of things that happened last weekend that I want to tell her but they aren't anything huge or serious.

I've found myself on these forums this week for the first time in a long time and that usually means that I've been thinking about therapy much more than usual. I hate how much time I spend thinking about my T and our sessions. My whole life revolves around it sometimes.

[lucozader]

I'm in the same boat! Dunno if that helps, but I don't really have any practical advice to offer (if I did I probably wouldn't be in the boat )...

Do you know why you think about her? I wonder if you're using her to fill a void of some sort

[laxer12]

Originally Posted by bluebicycle

Do you know why you think about her? I wonder if you're using her to fill a void of some sort

She's the only person I really talk to about anything these days. I have coworkers, family, and friends that I talk to but I don't talk about anything too deep or personal with them right now.

My T is the only person I feel connected to these days so I guess it makes sense that I'm thinking about her a lot.

I desperately want to call her right now but I know I shouldn't...

[satsuma]

I used to think a lot about T. Sometimes nearly all the time and very obsessively.
It has got a lot better - I now think some amount about T and I find it comforting to think of T, but I'm not going over and over therapy obsessively in my mind as I used to.
Also, I've had major improvements in my life since starting therapy. I don't think the obsessing over T did me any harm in the long run. It wasn't always nice but it has turned out well. I hope it will turn out the same way for you. I think some of us who have attachment issues and are doing a certain kind of therapy are going to go through this experience. (Mine was schema therapy).

Originally Posted by laxer12

She's the only person I really talk to about anything these days. I have coworkers, family, and friends that I talk to but I don't talk about anything too deep or personal with them right now.

My T is the only person I feel connected to these days so I guess it makes sense that I'm thinking about her a lot.

I desperately want to call her right now but I know I shouldn't...

Makes sense

Could you attend a support group to lessen your attachment? I see you're in the US, so there are definitely lots of options! For example, there are NAMI support groups scattered across the US. Also, universities and hospitals sometumes offer their own support groups. You can even find specialized support groups. For example, bipolar ones, PTSD ones, etc etc

If you have a support group, you may meet a lot of wonderful people there who you can make friends with. Then you can talk deep or personal things with them because they understand mental illness and will be a lot less likely to judge you.

I don't think it's a quick fix, but I think it could help you in the long run if you're interested.

[laxer12]

Originally Posted by satsuma

I used to think a lot about T. Sometimes nearly all the time and very obsessively.
It has got a lot better - I now think some amount about T and I find it comforting to think of T, but I'm not going over and over therapy obsessively in my mind as I used to.
Also, I've had major improvements in my life since starting therapy. I don't think the obsessing over T did me any harm in the long run. It wasn't always nice but it has turned out well. I hope it will turn out the same way for you. I think some of us who have attachment issues and are doing a certain kind of therapy are going to go through this experience. (Mine was schema therapy).

Attachment issues make therapy difficult sometimes. I know therapy is supposed to help attachment in the long-run but it's a tough journey to get there. It feels like it makes my attachment struggles worse at times...