[LesFleursDuMal]

I'm sorry I'm not sure there's really a point in this I'm just feeling so lost and confused, I absolutely don't know what to do anymore. As I said in my previous post, I've been feeling really suicidal lately, I have no idea what I'm gonna do with my life and I hate myself so much it's killing me. I've seen my T twice last week and disclosed some of my thoughts about it but I don't see the point. I feel like my T doesn't know what to do with me either. I've also seen him yesterday, I almost didn't say a word and neither did he, I feel like there's a huge gap between us when I've never needed his support so much. I told him I wasn't going to work or my classes at uni anymore and he asked why I was sabotaging myself like that. I don't know why, I just feel like everything is too hard for me at the moment. I also don't want to talk too much about suicide or be too negative because I don't want to put him in a difficult situation and I don't want my behavior to look like emotional blackmail. I felt like he cared too much last week, and yesterday I almost felt like he didn't give a s*** about me...
Sorry this is long and useless

[CantExplain]

((Fleurs))

[SoConfused623]

Originally Posted by LesFleursDuMal

I'm sorry I'm not sure there's really a point in this I'm just feeling so lost and confused, I absolutely don't know what to do anymore. As I said in my previous post, I've been feeling really suicidal lately, I have no idea what I'm gonna do with my life and I hate myself so much it's killing me. I've seen my T twice last week and disclosed some of my thoughts about it but I don't see the point. I feel like my T doesn't know what to do with me either. I've also seen him yesterday, I almost didn't say a word and neither did he, I feel like there's a huge gap between us when I've never needed his support so much. I told him I wasn't going to work or my classes at uni anymore and he asked why I was sabotaging myself like that. I don't know why, I just feel like everything is too hard for me at the moment. I also don't want to talk too much about suicide or be too negative because I don't want to put him in a difficult situation and I don't want my behavior to look like emotional blackmail. I felt like he cared too much last week, and yesterday I almost felt like he didn't give a s*** about me...
Sorry this is long and useless

(((LesFleursDuMal))) I can relate to the horrible lost and confused feelings and about not being motivated to do anything productive and hating yourself for it! I go through that every day! One thing that helps is an Al-Anon slogan that I heard a long time ago, "This too shall pass." Try to think about other horrible times in your life that you thought you'd never get through and how you did eventually get through it. IDK, that sort of helps me. Good luck, I really feel for you.

[LesFleursDuMal]

Originally Posted by SoConfused623

(((LesFleursDuMal))) I can relate to the horrible lost and confused feelings and about not being motivated to do anything productive and hating yourself for it! I go through that every day! One thing that helps is an Al-Anon slogan that I heard a long time ago, "This too shall pass." Try to think about other horrible times in your life that you thought you'd never get through and how you did eventually get through it. IDK, that sort of helps me. Good luck, I really feel for you.

Thank you very much for your compassion and support. I'll try to keep that in mind.