[Sarmas]

So my T is trying this thing that she does with her other eating disorder clients. We will have a dessert one week and an entree the next. I really appreciate it. I struggle with my eating throughout the week and I deal with that on my own. She said that this week she can't do an entree because she's working on spices with another client and so she's having lunch with her two hours before me during their session. We tried to set what the dessert would be. I don't like to touch base with her after session. I saw that it was left up in the air. She usually will decide what she wants and I'll pick it up. She never notified me and when I arrived she had a bewildered face. It was almost like I caught her in something. I said nothing. She then asked me if I picked up anything and I said no. I told her that she never told me what to get. She said she was under the impression that I would pick. She never lets me pick. She always picks. My impression was that she realized that she forgot.

Then due to my past I felt unimportant. The first thing I thought was that I get she didn't forget to order her entree earlier. I left it they way it was. I was upset about it but I never told her that I was. I just didn't take it well.