[Crook32]

It is interesting how some times your next appointment can't get here fast enough and other times it is here too quick. At my last session a lot of memories got triggered, not good or bad maybe more of an aha type thing. Unfortunately it was while we were wrapping up, literally 1 minute from the end. So now I have to sit here with these thoughts and wanting so bad to talk to T about them. I guess one good thing that has come from this so far is I am writing my thoughts and feelings done and making some connections on my own. It still feels like forever before I will get to talk to her.

So I know between appointments is where most of the work occurs. I just think things may have finally clicked for me and I might be able to make some meaningful connections and changes. I think this is the first time I have let my guard down enough to talk about the past in a non superficial way.

I am both excited and nervous to see what comes of this.

[DodgersMom]

i am the same way, i get it. its the only person i have in real life right now i can talk to i know wont start laughing at me or mocking me etc... so i do like going and talking

i do write often too. sometimes i write things i want to talk to him about and once in a while ill email him because i know he will reply and he will have it before i arrive... other times i try to get brave and read it out loud there. i also journal

right now its the toughest time I've had so far, in my life, dealing with a pending death, and its horribly hard on me, so i feel i want to go back, luckily he is giving me 2x this week. i gotta only wait until tuesday but who knows maybe when tuesday comes ill be not in the mood lol

its weird for sure

i am glad you were able to make a lot of progress with talking about your past