[MrsDuckL]

Hi everyone,

I know there was a helpful thread not that long ago regarding the best therapy for blocked emotions, but I'd love to hear from those of you who have dealt with it. Is the answer just time? That in time I will release decades worth of repressed and blocked emotions? As I've shared on here before, I'm new to therapy for the first time in my life--yesterday was weekly session #7 with my amazing therapist after having two short lived experiences with previous therapists. My mother was verbally and physically abusive my whole childhood and my dad was distant and detached. I'm in my 30s, so I'm recovering stuff from decades prior and tying that to how it affects me as an adult (me being emotionally withdrawn). My therapist takes a mindfulness and person based approach with some CBT, his modality fits me really well and we have a great connection. However, I find myself freezing up or dancing around the point with indepth questions or not being able to get to the core of them, even weeks later. We had our weekly session yesterday (after a long (for me) 15 day break due to vacation), and the emotional walls are still in force. Yesterday my therapist brought up something to talk about in next session, and I know the point cuts so deep to the depth of my pain, but I have a hard time expressing it or accessing those emotions. Yesterday after my session I basically sat in an emotional puddle, knowing on a subconscious level his kind point hurts so bad, but not knowing how to bring those emotions up to the surface--so I was basically frozen.

I meditate and journal, but I get impatient with myself sometimes, I know those emotions are there, but buried so deep. (I learned at a young age not to express emotions in front of others, so I'm undoing decades worth of training on that front.)

Anyhow, it's something I plan on bringing up next week, but just curious to hear others experiences with blocked emotions. I know I'm a newbie to therapy and I'm not in a hurry to leave anytime soon (I thank my lucky stars for insurance that covers unlimited visits!), but I still get frustrated with myself--I find myself tapping my brain impatiently, like I know the emotions are there, I just can't access them. Thank you in advance!

[LostOnTheTrail]

Your penultimate line is where I find myself at the moment. Thank you for writing this post. I hope we can both find a way to get at those emotions safely, sooner rather than later.

[DodgersMom]

i am the same. i am actually where i am shutting down in therapy. more or less because i am afraid to express emotions other than happy or content. i journal too, its somewhat helpful.

sometimes i email him before on my thoughts so its harder to back out of it... but i still can't cry in therapy. that is my biggest blocked emotion