[abusedtoy]

My T was really thoughtful and caring for me, how she demonstrated that she cares about me even after the session. I remember last week I was in crisis, I was one step away about to kill myself, so I have texted her in urgency and in great distress. It was so warm of her that she actually phoned me for 44 minutes to calm me down, immediately after she read my message. Seems like the perfect T in my life, well, so far...hopefully the best though. I am so touched by her support and the next day in our session, she gave me a gift! She told me that I can keep it, it is a little pink stone that she gave me--a stone with fragmented patterns, which she told me to hold it on the palm of my hand when I am in need. The fragmented spots symbolise the fragmented parts of me, the multiple parts of me (dissociative identities) and holding it together, as she told me, is like holding all of the fragmented parts together. How powerful and beautiful it is the meaning behind this simple little gift from her. She also called me "sweetheart". She always reassured me that I am safe with her in this room and that no one is going to harm me.

[WrkNPrgress]

That's lovely.

[Keyplayer]

Hi abusedtoy ,

Thank you so much for writing that , that was beautiful. How lucky you are to have found a therapist to be so kind. Plus she gave you that gift , a very meaningful pink & fragmented stone.

You are fortunate , you will be well soon.

I can tell you as long as you carry that stone , no harm will come to you. You will rise above and love others the same way she showed you how much she cared.

Someday when all in your heart is well , you can think of these days as just passing glimpses , like mysterious thoughts in the night that soon leave us.

I read under your name you died 7 years ago , how can that be ? you are here with us , telling us this story of love and the most profound bound of fellowship.

No my friend , you are very much alive , and truly blessed.

In my heart I can only say , rest easy , the world shall be yours.

All my hopes , take care ,

Keyplayer. 

[abusedtoy]

Originally Posted by Keyplayer

Hi abusedtoy ,

Thank you so much for writing that , that was beautiful. How lucky you are to have found a therapist to be so kind. Plus she gave you that gift , a very meaningful pink & fragmented stone.

You are fortunate , you will be well soon.

I can tell you as long as you carry that stone , no harm will come to you. You will rise above and love others the same way she showed you how much she cared.

Someday when all in your heart is well , you can think of these days as just passing glimpses , like mysterious thoughts in the night that soon leave us.

I read under your name you died 7 years ago , how can that be ? you are here with us , telling us this story of love and the most profound bound of fellowship.

No my friend , you are very much alive , and truly blessed.

In my heart I can only say , rest easy , the world shall be yours.

All my hopes , take care ,

Keyplayer. 

This is so sweet of you, Keyplayer. You bring light into this place here, with hearts that are full of darkness, in need of your comfort and encouragement. I like the poetic side of your writing. My T actually gave me a pink patterned cotton bag that contains the pink little stone. She told me to hold it when I feel like I am in need. I like your saying "this story of love". I like the childlike love between my T and me. It is a safe place where we would interact, no judgment, no disclosing of confidentiality, but only love and warmth that I can never be able to get it in another place out here on the earth. I do, yes...I really have been touched by her tenderly love, it makes my heart yearn to love others more. I like this pure love between us, even with boundaries, but I like it, I like it in this therapeutic way. A love that is sacred. Oh, in the last session, I was crying audibly, broke down at the ground in the room with her, looking down completely, but then she kept reassuring me, gently saying that "It is okay...", she then placed her hand on my upper shoulder, comforting me gently, stroking my upper back as she said "sweetheart" for almost ten times in that single meeting..."honey" and "darling" also. I am so grateful that she is in my life. I can't live without her caring support.

[Purple,Violet,Blue]

This brought tears to my eyes.

She clearly cares about you very much.

Here's a link you might find useful.

https://www.guardianbookshop.com/a-little-life.html

I've always read a lot of books. I find it helps me to process the things that happened in my childhood. This novel is one of the truest and most gentle and just the best I've come across.

Take care, dearest.

[Keyplayer]

Hi abusedtoy ,

I can not thank you enough for your kind words.

I truly believe there is a higher power helping write the words to help , and I am so very pleased you found them helpful .

I am in a dark place too , I am trying to find the way out , but when you fight so hard just to like yourself , passage ways are often hidden.

To so many people I am a "soft target" someone that can be taken advantage of , I try so hard to trust people and treat them as I myself would want to be treated.

This world has many dangers , it should be up to everyone of us to bring warmth to peoples lives , not take advantage of them.

I don`t mean to lay all this on you , just know I am suffering too.

I can write words of kindness and hope , but I can find the words to tell myself , " your a good person , be better to yourself "

If you should ever find yourself in a dark place , PM me , anytime.

Thanks again ,

Keyplayer 

[abusedtoy]

Originally Posted by Keyplayer

Hi abusedtoy ,

I can not thank you enough for your kind words.

I truly believe there is a higher power helping write the words to help , and I am so very pleased you found them helpful .

I am in a dark place too , I am trying to find the way out , but when you fight so hard just to like yourself , passage ways are often hidden.

To so many people I am a "soft target" someone that can be taken advantage of , I try so hard to trust people and treat them as I myself would want to be treated.

This world has many dangers , it should be up to everyone of us to bring warmth to peoples lives , not take advantage of them.

I don`t mean to lay all this on you , just know I am suffering too.

I can write words of kindness and hope , but I can find the words to tell myself , " your a good person , be better to yourself "

If you should ever find yourself in a dark place , PM me , anytime.

Thanks again ,

Keyplayer 

Keyplayer, I am sorry to know that you too are hurting. I want to tell you that you are very special, one of a kind and no one in this world can ever replace you, dear one. I can understand that being taken advantage of because of your weakness has been horrendous for you, and you are not alone. Sending you my love and warm hugs to you. Take care...you are stronger than you think.

[Keyplayer]

Hi abusedtoy ,

Thank you again , you made me smile , you are so full of love and understanding , it brings my joy to know there are still decent folk in the world.

Take care , and PM anytime , my God Bless and Keep You

Keyplayer. 

[abusedtoy]

Originally Posted by Keyplayer

Hi abusedtoy ,

Thank you again , you made me smile , you are so full of love and understanding , it brings my joy to know there are still decent folk in the world.

Take care , and PM anytime , my God Bless and Keep You

Keyplayer. 

Keyplayer, dear one...I have learnt to be very sensitive to other people's feelings, after I have gone through trauma all my life, I know how insensitivity can be really hurtful and I never would want that on anyone else, because I have tasted every bit of this pain and it is a pain that I would never want anyone to go through of what I have gone through in the past. I am glad that there is still hope for you in this world--restoring the faith in humanity. I love you.

[Keyplayer]

Hi A ,

Thank you , ditto +

KP. 