[justbreathe1994]

Hi all, it’s been a little while since I posted and I’ve been struggling with a lot of shame and fear in regards to my T lately. I don’t want to share too much info on here, but the clinic I see my T at for personality disorders is discharging all its outpatient clients in a month. We as clients all found out about four weeks ago. It’s absolutely aweful and I feel so bad for many of my friends as some of them really struggle with attachment disorders and acute mental illnesses. I am feeling incredibly guilty because apparently there are extremely rare clinical exceptions to the rule and I’m one of them. While I feel incredible relief and thankful (if that feeling even applies in this situation) my T is advocating for me to be an exception, like I said, I also feel a lot of shame. On top of that, I’m angry at the clinic and also scared of being kicked out myself at some point. It all just feels so aweful and unfair. I’ve had some rough times with my T, but she’s also perfect for me in a lot of ways. I don’t know how to sit in so much insecurity, knowing the clinic could probably kick me out at any point too. Or maybe my T will use it as an opportunity to get rid of me. That’s a fear too. Has anyone heard of clinics doing this with so many clients at once before?

[satsuma]

Hi Justbreathe. I'm so sorry. This sounds really stressful and upsetting.

I can understand why it would make you feel ashamed but I don't think the shame is yours.

Did they explain why they are discharging all of their outpatients? And is this linked with what your T said about you being an "exception to the rule"?

I don't quite understand all of it but it sounds like the clinic have handled things really badly and in a way to make their clients feel ashamed which I think is really wrong.

I guess the good part is that your T is standing up for you and trying to find a way around it, sounds like T doesn't want you to be discharged and is really doing everything possible to find a way around this. Does it help to know that your T is doing that?