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I had a horrible.experience at thearpy roday. My therapist is leaving and he told.me next session is last. I was unaware of this.
He also told me that if say someone had a year thearpy with a therapist it should be a one month transsession. I brought this up with him but he say yeah we did and we were trying to organise it waiting for psycharaist to get back from hoilday.
I had no.impression this was a transession.

I also have a letter to my keyworker to give to my thearpist to read about the experience I was unabppy with . But he never went through it with me.

I feel terrible torn as if he was my boyfriend and broke upw ith me. Which is werid because none thing happened.
I was so upset I self harm myself.

He told me that to a therpaist its like letting a go a child and you always wondered what happened to them.
Did they get married have kids? He explained its like when you are school and one atudent just leaves dchool and goes ome where else and you never hear from them.
But you always wondered about them. He told me you never forget your first clients.

But then there is this that what happened at therapy.
I thought he lied to me knowing that he and his keyworker knew about this different theaprist will takeover but it be DBT not psychotherapy.
He said they didnt say anything because they need to confirm if it was ok with psycharaist. Apparently psycharaist said it was up to me and my theaprist said I have power.
Anyway I didnt believe him and he said to me "well (my name) dont believe thats the end of story "

I said to them I had impression they dont want me.to go with them? He said because Im worried if I go to 6 weeks hoildays that it be unsettling for you also the cost. You have free service here where as you have to pay for me.

I recalled ages a go my theaprist said he give me a discount but it seems this isnt the case. Cause he said to.me if I pay $100 or something hundern every week that be $4,000 a year. I mentioned goverment covered it. In New Zealand they do that here.
He said half I said but when I saw art theaprist she cut it so I dont have to pay at all because Im on the sick.benfiti that again New Zealand's provides for mental illness.

I dont know wha tto make put of it.
My thearpist said hurtful things in past such as
"You need have to have a funeral for a mum you never had"
He told Im mainpulative by a behaviour I did but said I brought it up first.
I said dont recalled that and he blames it on we miscommcatie eachother.
They told me they wrote on there notes even if it was 7 days a week thearpy it wouldnt be enough for me.

Thats the stuff I mentioned in the letter but he told me we already gone over this. He claims we made.postivie porgress. But Im.still in the same postion as I was a year and half ago.
No job, unable to confront my partners mother. No friends. Still stuck at home with mum. Still self harm now and then. Still cry.

I've just gotten worse. He told me its normal for patiwnt to get worae 2 ,3 years before getting better? Im thinking is that true? I thought thata a short while not long term.

I dont know what to do. I have no suport agter 7th of December because he gone. Plus my keyworker said next theaprist be ready in 5 weeks time.
The thing what am I supposed to do in that time!?