My former T retired on October. In November, I went to my new T twice. My next appointment is this week.

Going to someone new feels awkward. When my old T asked something like, "Are you comfortable with me writing a summary of your situation? Is there anything you don't want me to tell her?" I said, "Tell her whatever you think is appropriate--I am an open person."

In our first session when I asked, "How do you know my therapist?" She said, "We are good friends." For some reason that seemed awkward. She seems just as knowledgable and experienced as my former T but I still can't help but comparing them. For example, I already feel like my former T was more easygoing and just sort of listened and let the conversation go where ever.

Sometimes my conversations get off track (I start talking about one thing then suddenly the conversation makes me think of something else and I'm off talking about something else)--on a couple of occassions, she asked me to bring the conversation back to the original topic--This reminded me of my H and mother. She reminds me more of my mother than my former T did because she just seems more "in charge" somehow because she guides our conversations more.

Wednesday will only be my third session with her. I wonder if the awkward feeling I have about her will pass?

[Teddy Bear]

You'll get used to it

[LonesomeTonight]

It definitely takes some time to get comfortable and develop a rapport with a new T. I had been seeing the same T for 6 years, then switched to someone new 3 months ago. The first few sessions were a bit awkward--it was like we were feeling each other out. He seemed more stiff and reserved. The past month or so has felt much more comfortable, like he seems much more down to earth and he'll joke around with me a little (I think he first had to figure out if I'd be OK with that)--there's just more of an ease and comfort to the relationship. So I would give it some time. If, after, say 3-6 more sessions you still don't feel comfortable, then it could be that it's not a good fit with this T and you should find someone new.

Lately, I find myself wondering if I need to go to therapy. I have been feeling peaceful and my family is getting along. (Why stir things up when you are feeling OK?) I am thinking about just seeing her once a month so I have a T available for me for when I "go off the rails" again. It seems to happen when my life becomes to stressful for me to handle......

During yesterday's session (4th) I think we were both feeling comfortable. Going to therapy seems like a luxury but I am going to go once a week unless one of us has a scheduling conflict (which seems to happen every other week with all that we both have going on). She said every other week could be sufficient for me.