Couch 162: Let's Play Ball! (The Baseball Couch)

awkwardlyyours · Feb 11, 2018, 03:43 PM

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Originally Posted by atisketatasket

Let Blondie play the role of Hector and take out the rage on her? (Not literally, of course.)

I'm actually being somewhat serious. Occasionally she seems to hit the jackpot with you emotionally, so why not go and see if she can do it again?

Also...no confrontation goes well. Think of it as something else? A conversation? A spirited exchange of ideas? Etc.

Ah, you and Blondie are similarly rational (I hope that doesn’t spoil the prospects of a cage match!) — she said similar stuff like how I should ask him to coffee / lunch and then calmly tell him what’s bothering me.

Except I’m flooded with the desire to absolutely rip him to pieces and leave nothing but a gory mess.

But, you make some wise suggestions — I should let Blondie know what’s going on and see what happens (there are a lot of parallels to what happened between me and her i.e., when I was raging at her and so, she’s well aware of the intensity of my anger about these things and possibly how other people are likely to experience it as well).

ETA: rr — that’s just brilliant

Feb 11, 2018, 03:46 PM

I'm keeping this as a surprise for my friends back in the midwest when I see them this summer but dang I wanna share this somewhere! My healthy eating continues and it's really not been a struggle. Whatever happened in my psyche or whatever when t let what I wanted matter, right smack in the middle of some negative maternal transference-y stuff at that session in early January was such a humongus thing.

Possible trigger:

I know that mod said I was ok to talk about this here but I'm trigger warning it anyway. So I've lost 18 lbs as of this morning. I am still what they call morbidly obese (gods i hate that term) so it shows only in my face, but I feel better already. I wish I knew how much I have to lose before I can start seeing it on the rest of my body.

atisketatasket · Feb 11, 2018, 03:56 PM

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Originally Posted by ArtieSwimsOn

I'm keeping this as a surprise for my friends back in the midwest when I see them this summer but dang I wanna share this somewhere! My healthy eating continues and it's really not been a struggle. Whatever happened in my psyche or whatever when t let what I wanted matter, right smack in the middle of some negative maternal transference-y stuff at that session in early January was such a humongus thing.

Possible trigger:

I know that mod said I was ok to talk about this here but I'm trigger warning it anyway. So I've lost 18 lbs as of this morning. I am still what they call morbidly obese (gods i hate that term) so it shows only in my face, but I feel better already. I wish I knew how much I have to lose before I can start seeing it on the rest of my body.

The extremities (face, hands, feet) start showing weight loss first. Then it kind of moves down from the head and up from the feet. Or so I’ve heard the trainers at my gym tell their clients.

unaluna · Feb 11, 2018, 03:58 PM

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Originally Posted by Jersey 2.0

Hi couch. Today I hate the un medicated version of me.

That’s all I wanted to say.

Carry on..

Hows dad? (Whenever you can get back to us :hug)

Feb 11, 2018, 04:13 PM

Thanks, @@.

Feb 11, 2018, 04:27 PM

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Originally Posted by unaluna

Hows dad? (Whenever you can get back to us :hug)

He came home on Thursday. He’s recovering well. But his attitude suggests that everyone should bow down to him because he just had surgery. I came to his defense when he was in the hospital, I got him home. But now his attitude is complete crap. I know it was a big major surgery. He got a whole new liver. I understand there will be a long recovery time but for the love of God, he got a second chance at life. Not a lot of people get a second chance to live. He’s very negative and throwing a self-pity party. I won’t engage it. I told him to call me when he decides he wants to be grateful for the gift that was given to him. None of this has to do with me hating the un medicated version of me though. I’m just not being nice to people today, so I’m just avoiding people. I have to learn how to harness the mood changes without the meds. My sister is due to have a baby in April. She handed me a guest list of 60 people for her baby shower. No. I dont think so. She better cut that in half.

Sorry...just random crap today is on my nerves.

Elio · Feb 11, 2018, 04:44 PM

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Originally Posted by ArtieSwimsOn

I'm keeping this as a surprise for my friends back in the midwest when I see them this summer but dang I wanna share this somewhere! My healthy eating continues and it's really not been a struggle. Whatever happened in my psyche or whatever when t let what I wanted matter, right smack in the middle of some negative maternal transference-y stuff at that session in early January was such a humongus thing.

Possible trigger:

I know that mod said I was ok to talk about this here but I'm trigger warning it anyway. So I've lost 18 lbs as of this morning. I am still what they call morbidly obese (gods i hate that term) so it shows only in my face, but I feel better already. I wish I knew how much I have to lose before I can start seeing it on the rest of my body.

For me, the bigger changes didn't become clearly visible until I added resistance training to the mix. Building muscle while losing fat.

Art, PM me if you want to talk details as I know this is touchy subject for many.

atisketatasket · Feb 11, 2018, 05:02 PM

I’m the flip side of Jersey’s coin—medicated, but feeling very unmedicated.

It started when some jackass at the gym told me I “sure could lift a lot of weight...for a woman.”

And from there it proceeded to an airing of my grievances in my head.

Breeeeaaaathe.

maybeblue · Feb 11, 2018, 05:10 PM

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Originally Posted by ArtieSwimsOn

I'm keeping this as a surprise for my friends back in the midwest when I see them this summer but dang I wanna share this somewhere! My healthy eating continues and it's really not been a struggle. Whatever happened in my psyche or whatever when t let what I wanted matter, right smack in the middle of some negative maternal transference-y stuff at that session in early January was such a humongus thing.

Possible trigger:

I know that mod said I was ok to talk about this here but I'm trigger warning it anyway. So I've lost 18 lbs as of this morning. I am still what they call morbidly obese (gods i hate that term) so it shows only in my face, but I feel better already. I wish I knew how much I have to lose before I can start seeing it on the rest of my body.

Possible trigger:

I started noticing at about 40 pounds.

Other people noticed sooner.

Feel free to PM me if you want more specific numbers.

Feb 11, 2018, 05:15 PM

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Originally Posted by atisketatasket

I’m the flip side of Jersey’s coin—medicated, but feeling very unmedicated.

It started when some jackass at the gym told me I “sure could lift a lot of weight...for a woman.”

And from there it proceeded to an airing of my grievances in my head.

Breeeeaaaathe.

This is probably not helpful, but in my current mood if that was said to me, I probably would’ve told the jackass to go F himself.

ETA- I think I’ll just sign off for the evening and hopefully wake up better tomorrow. We had rain all day and my basement got water in it.

Feb 11, 2018, 05:23 PM

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Originally Posted by JessLynn

... Bye then lol

Please stay, i always enjoy new people but i am unsure of what is a supportive response so i will hug your posts

Feb 11, 2018, 05:28 PM

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Originally Posted by stopdog

Is something going on?

No not really. Just yesterday i was standing in my lounge room and i could physically feel myself being sucked down into a dpression it was really odd. I feel better this morning but yesterday afternoon it felt like i was at the bottom of a pit

ruh roh · Feb 11, 2018, 05:52 PM

People of the Couch, I have exhausted myself. I exorcised all my rage digging up sod and hauling 3 truckloads of it to the dump. I believe it's cold outside, but it's like that doesn't even register, except for the frozen fingers. Now I just want someone to bring me food, but the only one around is my dog, and he isn't looking like he's going to take action.

88Butterfly88 · Feb 11, 2018, 05:54 PM

RR, can you get pizza delivered or something?

Feb 11, 2018, 05:55 PM

rr i have left over vege pizza and taco sauce. I can zoom that through the ether

Feb 11, 2018, 05:57 PM

What about cheese toast?

CantExplain · Feb 11, 2018, 06:20 PM

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Originally Posted by awkwardlyyours

Except I’m flooded with the desire to absolutely rip him to pieces and leave nothing but a gory mess.

T needs to hear this!

CantExplain · Feb 11, 2018, 06:23 PM

The pill hasn't had time to work yet, but the weather has improved, I went for a walk and I've had some mildly good news.

stopdog · Feb 11, 2018, 06:29 PM

CE - I am glad things are a little better.

Feb 11, 2018, 06:29 PM

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Originally Posted by CantExplain

The pill hasn't had time to work yet, but the weather has improved, I went for a walk and I've had some mildly good news.

Is it job related, CE? What pill is it? My seroquel stopped working quite some time ago and my gp is hopeless on anything psych and i cant afford a good pdoc.

Feb 11, 2018, 06:35 PM

The kittens are grooming me. Quite obviously eyebrows are a foreign body as they keep trying to remove mine.

ruh roh · Feb 11, 2018, 07:36 PM

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Originally Posted by BlessedCheeseMaker

rr i have left over vege pizza and taco sauce. I can zoom that through the ether

That sounds so good! I ended up going out to get a salad after I posted.

ruh roh · Feb 11, 2018, 07:37 PM

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Originally Posted by 88Butterfly88

RR, can you get pizza delivered or something?

Good idea for the future. There's a place in town that sells vegan. I should've done that. Now I am sitting here with my sad salad.

88Butterfly88 · Feb 11, 2018, 08:01 PM

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Originally Posted by ruh roh

Good idea for the future. There's a place in town that sells vegan. I should've done that. Now I am sitting here with my sad salad.

I wish there was a place with vegan pizza in my town.

Feb 11, 2018, 08:24 PM

I just looked to see when our next paper is due and it's due on Friday already!

I was hoping to have a Saturday again to write the next one but it is not to be. Well, I get home from work around 4:30 pm if I don't dawdle around talking to friends, so I'll be able to get 'er done. There's a total of 6 papers and half of them are due this month. Well, 7 total if we do the extra credit one, which I'm sure I will.

Our 2nd set of discussion posts are due on the 21st so I'll get a weekend to do those. Yay.

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