[justbreathe1994]

T and I been working on (well mainly just me...) not letting myself get lost in either extreme - total detachment or complete infatuation. We have been working on helping me stay grounded, balanced, in the “middle”. Today my T said something that meant a lot.

T: “I want to say something, but I also want to make sure that you know that it’s coming from a balanced place. I look forward to the day when you can feel the connection with me, without losing your balance.”

Me: “When you say “look forward to”, it sounds as if you really do believe I will get there someday.”

T: “I do. I know it’s probably going to take a long time, but I’m willing to be patient.”

*prolonged eye contact until my eyes finally dart to the wall*

Me: “I’m having a very hard time staying balanced right not.”

T: “I thought maybe you might.”

I know I’ve talked on here before about how my T can be so hard sometimes, but I’m genuinely grateful for her and her ability to hold boundaries while also still allowing some deep authentic connection. I’ve never had that before and I’m grateful she’s giving me that experience. Now to only be able to be able to do that in “real” life.

[Lemoncake]

Your progress will spill out into real life.I'm glad things are going well for you!

[CantExplain]

Well done!

[Fuzzybear]