[Lrad123]

I’ve been seeing my therapist for 8 months and have had this ridiculous push/pull relationship where I constantly feel like skipping but show up anyway. When I get there, I am incredibly anxious and awkward which is very different than I am in my real life. Three weeks ago I told him I wanted to talk to him about termination because I didn’t like the way things were going. That conversation went well and I decided to stay. The subsequent 2 appointments have gone really well. I feel like we are just 2 regular people talking and the anxiety during sessions is mostly gone. Phew! I am so relieved. I can’t imagine it going back to the way it was and I really think (hope) my ambivalence about therapy is gone because it was exhausting. I really don’t understand what changed except maybe I realized that I have a choice in all of this and no one is forcing me to go. I feel like I can finally get started on talking about the things I initially came to therapy for. Has anyone else had this sort of sudden change for the better in their therapy relationship?

[DP_2017]

I sure did, but sadly it went terribly this week... BUT before then, you bet. I loved going to therapy. I was actually somewhat happy.

I hope this all goes very well for you

[Lrad123]

Originally Posted by DP_2017

I sure did, but sadly it went terribly this week... BUT before then, you bet. I loved going to therapy. I was actually somewhat happy.

I hope this all goes very well for you

DP - I’m so sorry things went badly for you this week. It sometimes feels like a rollercoaster ride to me and I’m just reveling in the fact that things feel normal and good for a change. I sure hope you can fix things with your T. I have not had any big ruptures but I know others have and it’s always interesting to me to hear these stories, especially the ones where repair happened when it wasn’t expected. Keeping my fingers crossed for you.