[annielovesbacon]

I'm on a three month break from therapy as I'm taking an internship across the country. The plan is for me to go back in August, but I'm considering not even going back. I haven't made a lot of progress lately and I know that it's because I'm resistant to changing my bad behaviors. A part of me doesn't even want to get better.

I figure there's no point in going back if I don't want to get better. The thought makes me sad because I love my T, but I don't want to waste her time or my money. Has anyone else been in a similar situation?

There's usually a need being met when we engage in "bad" behaviours and are resistant to "getting better".

Fodder for therapy I'll say.

For me, one "bad" behaviour was self harming, which I didn't want to stop because it met emotional regulation and self validation needs. I talked with my T about this and though we disagree, we work on the underlying needs and I find that my self harm is decreasing because I've other ways to meet those needs now.

[koru_kiwi]

why not ask yourself this question towards the end of your internship and see how you feel after having some time away from therapy and your T?

[Ididitmyway]

I concur with the previous post. You have three months to make up your mind about this. It makes sense to postpone your decision until the end of your internship and for now to keep focus on the present. If you allow yourself to let go of this dilemma for three months and to engage in your every day life as fully as possible then by the end of your internship you will have much more clarity on what to do, I am sure.