[Leah123]

I'm leaving my therapist after 5 years. That's what I'm thinking about doing tomorrow and it feels so depressing. I'm gonna be so alone. I've talked to her most days for the past five years. I've counted on her almost like a mother, and she's been.... we've been really close, and.... she's been somewhat of a mentor to me.

We've had some rocky times and I see patterns repeating that aren't helping me and last week... she crossed some lines and wasn't professional, again.

I have to go, because staying, I spend too many days distracted by stress and sadness and anxiety when it doesn't go well. I ... will gain more calm and peace and save enough $ to work 5 hours less a week, am working a lot of OT right now.

I've been isolated working from home many hours, but I signed up for meetup and to socialize, make new friends, and I got a new job 6 months ago, though I can't make friends there because of the setup, but it's a good job, so that's a positive. I have a long distance friend but we've been out of touch not working together anymore. I have my husband, but we have some troubles too, so it's good and not so good simultaneously.

I'm going to be so sad this week, I don't know how I'll do it.

Trying to think of things, like work in my garden, not push myself, maybe sign up for another meetup, etc., check in w/my friend, maybe watch comedy, but I'm not in for all the grief, it's ... and I worry about staying focused on my job, about managing.

I'm so sad I don't feel like moving sometimes. I was already stressed and depressed. I know I'll be ok. I know I'm resilient, and I'll gain some things, but.... it's a huge loss. I'm losing family. That's really what it is.

I can't believe I'm doing this, starting to seem a little unreal.

[atisketatasket]

It’s good to see you, Leah—but I’m so sorry to hear aboit this. I remember how close you were.

Hi Leah, I left the board earlier this year and have rejoined with a new name. I remember your many supportive and encouraging posts, and I remember you saying that your therapy had been very helpful to you. I'm so sorry to hear that it sounds like your T has been a let down, and been unprofessional.

[Fuzzybear]

I’m sorry to hear about this

[SalingerEsme]

That sounds both sad and resolute

[Echos Myron redux]

I'm sorry to hear this too Leah. Leaving T1 voluntarily was one of the most painful decisions I've ever made, it was honestly heart wrenching but the distance allowed me to see all that was wrong with the relationship and I am very glad I took the step even though it hurt for so long. Healing will take time, so take care of yourself.

[Leah123]

Thanks everyone, I appreciate all the virtual hugs, glad to see all the familiar people too.

I just feel like 1,000 pounds, leaden lately. All I want to do is sleep and everything hurts or the past week.

I know there are things not going well and I can do okay on my own, but I will miss her unbelievably. Just having someone there for me so consistently and our moments of synergy and kinship.... sigh, it hurts to lose. We'll be talking tomorrow in session, she was tired and opted out of saying anything in our chat today.

[*Laurie*]

I commend you for doing what is most healthy for yourself.

[Favorite Jeans]

It's as major as any break-up, I think. It's worse in that there isn't the same kind of broad societal recognition and sympathy for the loss of this type of relationship. I'm so sorry that you're going through this. Good for you for taking care of yourself and doing the right thing for yourself.