Thanksgiving is a really hard time for my alters and me. We are spending our 2nd thanksgiving with friends, family is more then 1000 miles away. This is a good thing, but wow it throws us for a loop because it's so DIFFERENT.

We've been having horrible flashbacks and recalling awful memories lately. With the holiday coming up, T is going to have a four day weekend. This strikes us with panic. She'll get to see her loving family again - maybe she won't want to come back. Maybe she'll see how unlovable we are. Maybe she'll forget all about us....

Irrational much? I know. But it hurts me to think of not being able to be with her, and feel safe and close to her. I didn't have to say it - neither did any of my little ones. SHE was the one that said "You know, I think you should take this blanket home with you when you come in on Wednesday before Thanksgiving, to help you guys remember I'm coming back, I'm with you." My little one asked "To hold the connection?" She smiled and said "Exactly!"

I love her

Oh I'm going to miss her. I want to call her up and beg her "Can I call you if I miss you too much?" I know she'll say it's fine - but the guilt of thinking about it is too much for me.

[pegasus]

Awww...... You have a lovely T there.

(((((((( stormyangels ))))))))

[Perna]

That's wonderful. Too bad we can't bottle the smell of "her" blanket to keep for always :-)