[scarcejoy]

This month of September is going to be excruciatingly difficult for me. The reason why is because my therapist and I are not going to be seeing each other anymore. Ever since she told me this at the end of July, I have felt saddened and devastated. I have thought about it very obsessively every day. I just can't stop thinking about this. My therapist will be moving to a bigger office within the private practice that she is working in and it will be too far for me to drive to. I told my therapist that I felt happy and proud of her as she is advancing in her own career so it's not like I am upset with her. But it still hurts deeply. My therapist has referred me to another therapist. I feel confident that it will work out fine with the other therapist. It is just that right now, I can't seem to stop thinking about my therapist leaving. It seems like it's the only thing I want to think about.

My therapist and I have been meeting for 3 years and she has greatly influenced my life. She and I have built such a great rapport that I have full trust in her when I tell her about something difficult. Throughout the 3 years that we have met, I have lived some very difficult moments in my life and she is always there for me in therapy to give me emotional support. It is also helps that she has told me that she likes working with me and spending time with me. I can always count on her warm and emphatic to give me hope. My therapist has given me lots of hope in my life. As hopeless as I feel at times, I think of her help and words and it reminds me that not all is lost. She gives me the strength to persevere and continue each day. Even just going to see her makes me feel a little better and gives me a small boost to my depressed mood.

The thought that I am troubled with is the countdown in my mind since I knew about this at the end of July. I feel like each day that goes by, it is one less day with her. Then when we meet, as I walk out I get this sensation of pain in my chest. That is because it is one less therapy session with her. I am going to miss her dearly. Her absence come the end of this month will leave a huge void in my life. It has been painfully difficult for me to imagine not seeing her each week. She is the source of my motivation, strength, and hope. At the end of the month, that final session will be very emotional for the both of us.