[skysblue]

Strangest thing this week - I went into session with my sub T and wanted it to be short.

Why? I'm not sure exactly. I think I was bored with myself and just didn't feel like discussing anything. Was feeling lazy.

But, like always, it turned out to be a good session and I was glad we even went over the 60 minutes.

You never know how things will turn out. Has anyone else ever experienced this?

[healed84]

Yes, I have a couple of times cut my sessions short. I simply say, I have to be done and we are done. Sometimes it's because I can't that we are talking about the same issues over and over and I just couldn't do it that day. Or I was frustrated and I realized I was no longer capeable of doing anything productive in that sessions. There has also been a time or two where I was just overwhelmed by emotion and I didn't want to break down in front of t. One time I was flat out frustrated with t and I felt like we were misunderstanding each other and I told him that and I wanted to stop.

[peacelizard]

Yeah, definitely. I don't know if, going into I it, I've specifically thought about wanting an abbreviated session, but definitely, "What the hell am I going to talk about," as if not having a specific problem or negative experience meant that we couldn't have a good, productive conversation

[Argonautomobile]

Yes, absolutely. Many times. I just leave early.

[Anne2.0]

I often feel bored by thinking about going to therapy, and I have been bored by myself in session before. I sometimes leave 5 or 10 minutes early if "that's all I've got." My laziness is about not wanting to listen to myself more for the process (which requires tuning in a little deeper for me) than the content. I know from my work that really listening to people (including myself) takes energy and focus. As a woman of a certain age, I don't always have it.

Sometimes I'm on a split-screen, meaning I'm watching myself on one screen and present in the chair on the other, and it can be surprising how I learn from that. Having some distance, which seems anti-thetical to mindfulness, gives me a chance to notice the way I talk about something as opposed to what I'm talking about. I notice I do it differently than I did some years ago. Subtle stuff. But I like myself better in relation to T now than I did.

So for me boredom and laziness are sometimes just a stand in until I'm ready to be more for myself.